InHisLove726 Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='MIkolbe' date='19 October 2009 - 07:23 AM' timestamp='1255951415' post='1987777'] toast [/quote] coagulated milk on toast.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XIX Posted October 19, 2009 Author Share Posted October 19, 2009 Yeah, it was fun. The night pretty much started off with me crying in front of the Blessed Sacrament. There's not a lot that makes me cry anymore, but...yeah. The rest of the night was all socializing...I tried to enjoy myself, but I had a hard time doing so. One of my friends tried very hard to put me into a better mood by forgetting about my problems or something, but that just wasn't happening. Some of life's circumstances have been weighing very heavily on me. So on the way back, it was really weird. I told Him a few things that I was thinking. I knew they weren't true, but at the same time, I sort of meant what I said. I don't know, it's very hard to describe. About the best I can put it is that I decided to be angry with God, with an understanding that my frustration didn't mean I thought He was actually wrong or doing something bad. I'm not good at manipulating my emotions, except by avoiding low blood sugar. So usually if I'm upset, and I have a good reason to be upset, I just go with it. Right now I'm in a (hopefully) temporary state of epic fail with regard to some goals and dreams that God has placed on my heart. So it would probably be a bad sign if I didn't become upset sooner or later. But I was brutally honest with God. He's awesome. He puts up with a lot from me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eagle_eye222001 Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 (edited) [color="#000080"][quote name='Nihil Obstat' date='18 October 2009 - 03:43 PM' timestamp='1255894998' post='1987395'] [color="#000000"] Your message is thus: .... This all seems very clear to me. Rather surreal of course, but quite simple when you look at it.[/color] [/quote] Um....sound like someone copied from Dr. Seuss or something like that. [quote name='XIX' date='19 October 2009 - 11:58 AM' timestamp='1255967885' post='1987828'] Yeah, it was fun. The night pretty much started off with me crying in front of the Blessed Sacrament. There's not a lot that makes me cry anymore, but...yeah. The rest of the night was all socializing...I tried to enjoy myself, but I had a hard time doing so. One of my friends tried very hard to put me into a better mood by forgetting about my problems or something, but that just wasn't happening. Some of life's circumstances have been weighing very heavily on me. So on the way back, it was really weird. I told Him a few things that I was thinking. I knew they weren't true, but at the same time, I sort of meant what I said. I don't know, it's very hard to describe. About the best I can put it is that I decided to be angry with God, with an understanding that my frustration didn't mean I thought He was actually wrong or doing something bad. I'm not good at manipulating my emotions, except by avoiding low blood sugar. So usually if I'm upset, and I have a good reason to be upset, I just go with it. Right now I'm in a (hopefully) temporary state of epic fail with regard to some goals and dreams that God has placed on my heart. So it would probably be a bad sign if I didn't become upset sooner or later. But I was brutally honest with God. He's awesome. He puts up with a lot from me. [/quote] Well....it sounds like it wasn't a complete waste of time. Hopefully your feeling a little better anyways... God's been hearing a lot from me recently. I don't feel much better, but he heard me, and I guess he has something planned. It's good your going through the stages. I find the hardest part to put your trust that God actually has a plan. [/color] Edited October 19, 2009 by eagle_eye222001 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='eagle_eye222001' date='19 October 2009 - 12:07 PM' timestamp='1255972025' post='1987859'] [color="#000080"] Um....sound like someone copied from Dr. Seuss or something like that. [/color] [/quote] Dr. Seuss?? I'm offended. It was Lewis Carrol's Hunting of the Snark. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eagle_eye222001 Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='Nihil Obstat' date='19 October 2009 - 01:42 PM' timestamp='1255974126' post='1987894'] Dr. Seuss?? I'm offended. It was Lewis Carrol's Hunting of the Snark. [/quote] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
missionseeker Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='Nihil Obstat' date='19 October 2009 - 12:42 PM' timestamp='1255974126' post='1987894'] Dr. Seuss?? I'm offended. It was Lewis Carrol's Hunting of the Snark. [/quote] I KNEW it was Lewis Carrol! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dominicansoul Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 (edited) [quote name='XIX' date='19 October 2009 - 11:58 AM' timestamp='1255967885' post='1987828'] Yeah, it was fun. The night pretty much started off with me crying in front of the Blessed Sacrament. There's not a lot that makes me cry anymore, but...yeah. The rest of the night was all socializing...I tried to enjoy myself, but I had a hard time doing so. One of my friends tried very hard to put me into a better mood by forgetting about my problems or something, but that just wasn't happening. Some of life's circumstances have been weighing very heavily on me. So on the way back, it was really weird. I told Him a few things that I was thinking. I knew they weren't true, but at the same time, I sort of meant what I said. I don't know, it's very hard to describe. About the best I can put it is that I decided to be angry with God, with an understanding that my frustration didn't mean I thought He was actually wrong or doing something bad. I'm not good at manipulating my emotions, except by avoiding low blood sugar. So usually if I'm upset, and I have a good reason to be upset, I just go with it. Right now I'm in a (hopefully) temporary state of epic fail with regard to some goals and dreams that God has placed on my heart. So it would probably be a bad sign if I didn't become upset sooner or later. But I was brutally honest with God. He's awesome. He puts up with a lot from me. [/quote] I would have kicked you in the... (oh wait, I can't say that here...) ...prayers for you... Edited October 19, 2009 by dominicansoul Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='missionseeker' date='19 October 2009 - 01:55 PM' timestamp='1255978533' post='1987911'] I KNEW it was Lewis Carrol! [/quote] I love Hunting of the Snark and Jabberwocky. Someday I should print out or buy a full text of Hunting of the Snark and completely analyze it start to finish. So weird. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
XIX Posted October 19, 2009 Author Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='dominicansoul' date='19 October 2009 - 04:01 PM' timestamp='1255978863' post='1987915'] I would have kicked you in the... (oh wait, I can't say that here...) ...prayers for you... [/quote] I...um... what on earth are you talking about? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dominicansoul Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='XIX' date='19 October 2009 - 05:30 PM' timestamp='1255987850' post='1987968'] I...um... what on earth are you talking about? [/quote] nevermind... I was just thinking about the time I confessed something very similar in confession... frustration about my life, some frustration with God...and the priest told me that "I needed a good kick in the bum..." (except he didn't say "bum.") anyhoo, I'll be praying for you...I know the feeling... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted October 19, 2009 Share Posted October 19, 2009 [quote name='dominicansoul' date='19 October 2009 - 04:34 PM' timestamp='1255988089' post='1987969'] nevermind... I was just thinking about the time I confessed something very similar in confession... frustration about my life, some frustration with God...and the priest told me that "I needed a good kick in the bum..." (except he didn't say "bum.") anyhoo, I'll be praying for you...I know the feeling... [/quote] Sometimes that's the very best of advice. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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