From American Papist

[Nihil Obstat]

[mod][size="4"]Warning: this article is extremely disturbing and may not be appropriate for younger children or pregnant women to read. Proceed with caution.[/size][/mod]






















[url="http://www.americanpapist.com/2009/10/mature-audience-woman-describes.html"]AmP Link[/url]

[quote]

WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 14, 2009

Mature audience: Woman describes performing abortion while pregnant herself
WARNING: this post contains a graphic description of an abortion that may not be appropriate for some individuals. Please read with care.

I think it's important in the debate about abortion to have an honest dialogue about all parties who are involved.

I think this blog, written by a female abortionist, goes far in revealing the sort of extreme cognative dissonance that is necessary for someone to perform abortions.

And yet, even in this situation, it's impossible for her to avoid her own humanity - and the humanity of the young human person she is destroying:
When I was a little over 18 weeks pregnant with my now pre-school child, I did a second trimester abortion for a patient who was also a little over 18 weeks pregnant. As I reviewed her chart I realised that I was more interested than usual in seeing the fetal parts when I was done, since they would so closely resemble those of my own fetus.
I went about doing the procedure as usual, removed the laminaria I had placed earlier and confirmed I had adequate dilation. I used electrical suction to remove the amniotic fluid, picked up my forceps and began to remove the fetus in parts, as I always did. I felt lucky that this one was already in the breech position – it would make grasping small parts (legs and arms) a little easier.
With my first pass of the forceps, I grasped an extremity and began to pull it down. I could see a small foot hanging from the teeth of my forceps. With a quick tug, I separated the leg. Precisely at that moment, I felt a kick – a fluttery “thump, thump” in my own uterus. It was one of the first times I felt fetal movement. There was a leg and foot in my forceps, and a “thump, thump” in my abdomen.
Instantly, tears were streaming from my eyes – without me – meaning my conscious brain - even being aware of what was going on. I felt as if my response had come entirely from my body, bypassing my usual cognitive processing completely. A message seemed to travel from my hand and my uterus to my tear ducts. It was an overwhelming feeling – a brutally visceral response – heartfelt and unmediated by my training or my feminist pro-choice politics.
It was one of the more raw moments in my life. Doing second trimester abortions did not get easier after my pregnancy; in fact, dealing with little infant parts of my born baby only made dealing with dismembered fetal parts sadder.
... and yet, she continues to perform abortions to this day.

There are several more examples in the same post of similar, incomprehensible thoughts and experiences related by the abortionist-writer.

If anything we've ever read has convinced us we need to pray for an end to an abortion, for the conversion of those who perform them, and work with greater self-conviction in the knowledge that our cause is just and desperately-needed in this world ... this was it.

[/quote]

Edited October 15, 2009 by Lil Red
added extra warning.

[OraProMe]

Phatmass seriously needs a vomit emoticon.

[HisChildForever]

Revolting. What is WRONG with these people??

[CatherineM]

She still does abortions because she has been indoctrinated that in order to be a good feminist, she must believe that women need to be free of child responsibilities. Or perhaps she is a class elitist like Margaret Sanger and believes that poor women shouldn't have babies.

[Nihil Obstat]

Seems pretty clear that she's so totally indoctrinated that even when she's given a crystal clear message like that, she brushes it off and keeps going.
That moment was her equivalent of the lightning bolt on her way to Damascus, and she ignored it.

[zunshynn]

The blogs that are linked to that one are almost worse. There was one that specifically created a blog to discuss what happens "when you're aborting". Like making a blog about what happens when you have your tonsils removed.

She called it "corrective womb surgery"

Then she wrote a letter to "this pregnancy"... I won't post all of it because there's a lot of language, but part of it said

[quote]Dear This Pregnancy,

I don’t know what I ever did to you, This Pregnancy, but you’ve picked the wrong woman.

You’re trying to ******** me with this **** and are showing no remorse. Your merciless tactics will not go unpunished. I will qualify this war in the harshest of terms.

There is no moral component of this situation to me. You have invaded my sovereign womb and have poisoned me with your vindictive nature.

I like my lady parts, I like afterwork cocktails, I like my sex drive, I like not feeling as if I’m on a plummeting elevator (boxed in and sinking) all DAY LONG.

I want it back.

And I will take it.

You are thriving in a bubble of futility.
[/quote]

SO SO Sad. And there's so many of them like that... blogs I mean. Not that most women that have abortions have that attitude about it.

[Nihil Obstat]

That's awful.

[CatherineM]

You know it could also be that she has huge student loans, and won't allow herself to truly understand what she is doing because the money is good.

[Archaeology cat]

I think I should have heeded the warning and not read it. I'm about 17 weeks pregnant.

[Nihil Obstat]

[quote name='Archaeology cat' date='15 October 2009 - 12:41 AM' timestamp='1255585276' post='1985748']
I think I should have heeded the warning and not read it. I'm about 17 weeks pregnant.
[/quote]
I'm sorry. Probably should have put it in spoiler tags or something. Or just a link.

[Archaeology cat]

Not your fault, Nihil. I probably would've read it anyway.

[Marie-Therese]

Dear God. We aren't even human anymore.

Nothing could showcase the total disintegration of our world more than this. Morality is an antiquated notion...conscience is no longer a compass; rather, a slave driver to be overthrown.

I wish I could be shocked, but I'm not. I'm just sad. So, so sad.

[missionseeker]

The website he linkss to is just crazy. It says that they all feel that feeling but chalk it up to "what if the anti's saw this!?" Welll... if there is something to see that makes their argument/movement stronger... then... yeah.

[Sojourner]

[quote name='Archaeology cat' date='15 October 2009 - 01:46 AM' timestamp='1255585616' post='1985751']
Not your fault, Nihil. I probably would've read it anyway.
[/quote]
Yeah ... warnings rarely deter me. Like you I kinda wish I hadn't read it.

The fact that she could keep performing the abortion after her body and her baby so clearly told her that what she was doing was wrong is shockingly awful. I cannot imagine ... I just can't imagine.

[Archaeology cat]

[quote name='Terra Firma' date='15 October 2009 - 07:05 PM' timestamp='1255629900' post='1985911']
Yeah ... warnings rarely deter me. Like you I kinda wish I hadn't read it.

The fact that she could keep performing the abortion after her body and her baby so clearly told her that what she was doing was wrong is shockingly awful. I cannot imagine ... I just can't imagine.
[/quote]
I know! I honestly think babies in the womb are much more aware than people give them credit for. My son almost always kicked at the Consecration or Elevation. Wouldn't be moving before then, then would kick. I saw it as a recognition of God. The little jumping bean has flailed around at the Elevation a couple of times, too. Too early yet for strong kicks.