Azriel Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 I go back to work in 21 days. I thought I could handle it. I gotta pretty flexible cushy job. At least it has been at times. And, I've worked for the company for almost 9 years. I have no clue what project I'm going back to and that scares me. But, I figured I'd be fine going back to work. She won't be in day care, she will be with a family member (a cousin who has little ones of her own and who loves Dani to death. We share the same values, so I've no problems with that). And historically speaking, my job has allowed me to work from home with flexible hours. So I figure that I still won't be away from her a stock 8-10 hours a day ... it will probably be much less than that. But as I watch my lil girl sleeping in her swing, I'm filled with dread of the day I drop her off. No one can take care of her like I do. No one can love her as I do. I knew I would have to work, but, I'm going to have to find a way to be with her more. And, yes, I do know that working costs money and that certain things must be given up in order to stay home. I understand that. But, currently, unless we sell the house, there is no way that I can quit work entirely. We can, however, get by on much less than we make currently. We have been very fortunate to have the jobs we have. I've read everything I can about how to make staying at home work, so please no lectures about how I if I really wanted to stay home I could. There are many things that we can go without, but my home is not one of them. So, I've begun the work at home/part time job search. I will also have my Master's degree in a couple of months, so I'm hoping that will open some doors. Pray for me as I attempt this transition. I know that as long as I put myself in the Lord's hands, it will work out. I need to trust and work towards my goal. Thanks to my pham in advance. I love you all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marielapin Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 I'll be praying for you Az. I do realize that even though staying at home with your child is best, sometimes necessities dictate otherwise. As I've been saying to people here at work who ask why I am leaving: "Not everyone has the opportunity to stay at home with their children, and I have been blessed enough to be able to embrace this opportunity." I can understand your anxieties though. I will be able to understand them much better in about three and a half months. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lil Red Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Az, prayers going to you and your family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carrie Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Az, I'm praying for you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PedroX Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Az, My prayers are with you and your family. I know that the Holy Family is watching out for all of you. peace.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IcePrincessKRS Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 You have my prayers Azzie. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kilroy the Ninja Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Azzy, you have my prayers. 'Tis a hard thing to do, a most difficult decision to make, and either way one might think they are not doing the right thing. The key is to make a decision and then make it the right one. I chose to stay home with the Baby Ninja Crusader even though I make almost half again as much as Don John. Sure, we'd have more money, less bills and probably a nicer car right now, but I've waited so long for a child I want to spend all (or at least most) of my time with him. I found a nice middle ground. I've got a job in the middle of the night now just around the corner from my home. So I'm only up for an hour or so longer than I would have been anyway, and it's while the baby's asleep and while DJ is home. I have been very blessed. The decision you make is yours alone to make. And regardless of what that is, if you really want something to work it is up to you to MAKE it work the way YOU want it to. I wish you well and may God bless your family and endeavors. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Raven Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 Love and Light, Azzie! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VeraMaria Posted March 2, 2004 Share Posted March 2, 2004 I'll remember u in my rosary tonight Az!! Love 'n hugs to Danielle! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azriel Posted March 3, 2004 Author Share Posted March 3, 2004 thanks everyone, especially the ninja for reminding me it can be done! I know I can make it work. There by the grace of God ... love to you all! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
littleflower+JMJ Posted March 3, 2004 Share Posted March 3, 2004 prayers az! may the Blessed Mother help and guide you and your family always! :group: +JMJ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lounge Daddy Posted March 3, 2004 Share Posted March 3, 2004 haha! you are in my prayers, Azriel. so take that, Michiganian you are loved, and you are prayed for. God has your back, Phatmassers have you in prayer. :cool: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Azriel Posted March 16, 2004 Author Share Posted March 16, 2004 My how time flies. I go back Monday. I'm depressed. Pray please my pham. (I also type 1 handed, hence my really short posts lately ) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Good Friday Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 Azriel, I'll pray for you, and so will St. Joseph the Worker. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carrie Posted March 16, 2004 Share Posted March 16, 2004 praying!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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