ironmonk Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 Cathurian, If you feel you were being attacked, instead of posting it on a board, it would be better to pick up a bible - or Raccolta (book of prayers) - pray - and call a priest. Theo, I was thinking the same thing... "Why do they have to give him a face that looks soft and feminine?" God Bless, ironmonk. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
photosynthesis Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 I will most certainly be praying for you... If you want, I can pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet for you as well. I think satan is taunting you because he knows you are a child of God and he is threatened by you, especially since you are thinking about religious life and giving your life to Jesus as a nun. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 (edited) I'm vomiting up stomach acid and I feel sick all over and I'm sweating. Oh man. Edit: And yes I'm getting an appointment with a priest, I'd be crazy not to. Edited February 25, 2006 by Cathurian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
photosynthesis Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 [quote name='Cathurian' date='Feb 25 2006, 01:31 AM']I'm vomiting up stomach acid and I feel sick all over and I'm sweating. Oh man. Edit: And yes I'm getting an appointment with a priest, I'd be crazy not to. [right][snapback]897318[/snapback][/right] [/quote] i just prayed the Divine Mercy Chaplet for you... I hope things get better if you want to talk I am signing onto IM Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daugher-of-Mary Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 If you're still being attacked, call a priest right now. He shouldn't care if it is the night. Also, call 911. Please dear! Praying for you! I'm on aim right now (catholicgirl833), so IM me if you're still up Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 (edited) It tortured me again. I'm so upset. It's still here this morning. Oh my God. I'm sick as a dog and it's mocking God, it's repeating His words to me and laughing, or using His voice and blaspheming. Edited February 25, 2006 by Cathurian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 (edited) I can hear it and it swears it's in my soul and God isn't. It's trying to torture me for praying Hail Mary and St. Michael. Edited February 25, 2006 by Cathurian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cmotherofpirl Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 Get offline and get to CHURCH. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 My mom might be just slightly upset. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Theologian in Training Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 What were you doing before this happened? It seems strange that this all of a sudden occurred for no reason whatsoever. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 (edited) Yeah it came pretty out of the blue... A couple years ago, it was with me for a few months, and tortured and raped and possessed me. I'm still really traumatized over it all. Like anytime I notice anything spiritual happening, I freak out. It's a panic reaction. I can't help it and I hate it. Well, a couple weeks ago, God came down, miraculously healed me of a condition I had, told me I was going to be a nun, and I said yes. Then He started talking to me...yes, talking to me...cause He said I was weak and needed His help very badly to get past all this, and I was past the point of flying into sheer panic whenever I noticed Him, so He could talk to me and console me. He told me how much He loved me. I could repeat it all to you, just so you can know it's Him, if you want, but I started trusting Him more and more than I was and feeling healed from all the garbage the demon did to me. A week ago or so it came back and started assaulting me with images of Jesus raping me and it screamed it would do that to me again, only looking like Jesus, and said "you think you're scarred up now? I'll scar you up so bad you'll never love Him" and things like that. Now it's mocking God, by repeating a lot of the wonderful things God told me in its own voice...like God would call me "beloved" and say He loved me... It's twisting my soul up and torturing me all over again and telling me I liked it, and saying "you miss me, beloved, you know you do" and telling me to come have its despair again. I'm also praying a novena to the Sacred Heart to grow in love and humility, and I got spiritually attacked the last two times I prayed it, too. I think I've just made satan really mad in general and it just decided to start attacking me -- AND MY FRIENDS -- last night. Edited February 25, 2006 by Cathurian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 My mom's taking me to the priest and hopefully we're getitng the house blessed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
daugher-of-Mary Posted February 25, 2006 Share Posted February 25, 2006 Is there any way you could see your priest right away...like NOW, today?? I'm so worried about you. Know of my small prayers, and those of the pham. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cathurian Posted February 25, 2006 Author Share Posted February 25, 2006 (edited) I went to Mass today. Tried to get to Confession. The line was so long the priest had to turn like 10-15 people away so he could get ready for Mass. I tried to talk to him after, he said call him, I said I'd tried several times, he says leave a message and he can get back eventually. 5,000 people come to Mass every Sunday. There's probably many more who come on Saturday, and more that don't come weekly. And there are two priests to take care of all those people. I'm trying to get in touch with them but it is *hard*. Edit: Also, I'm physically sick. Really, really sick. Like I need to lie down in bed and rest cause I'm shaking and feel gross all over and my throat hurts really bad. Edited February 25, 2006 by Cathurian Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anastasia13 Posted February 26, 2006 Share Posted February 26, 2006 [quote name='Cathurian' date='Feb 24 2006, 09:10 PM']and I start to worry that it's just my own despair eating me up and God will abandon me to my own personal little hell, because I won't stop worriying. [right][snapback]897245[/snapback][/right] [/quote] Romans 8:38For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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