DesiringMore Posted December 22, 2003 Share Posted December 22, 2003 At times that i doubt the sense of belonging that i once felt in a place, Christ clearly shows me, especially when i least expect it, why He has me where He does and why i belong...Go God!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 Last night i went to visit my dearest friends who just got back from a cruise!! i missed them so much! to spend a week away from them physically, my thoughts were never far from them...i continued to think, pray, remind myself of the memories that will be with me forever...at the moment i pulled in their driveway, i knew i belonged right there...open arm, smiles from ear to ear, laughter, sharing of their week....to hear them say they thought about me and at times thought "i wish Brooke were here"....i was in awe...my "i" was exhalted......and then, after CL going back and although they were extremely tired, they stayed up and asked me about my week and how things were going--despite them wanting to go to bed, they thought i was important enough to stay up and not only listen but share in my pain and my joy.....moments like these, show me clearly that i belong...not only do they belong to me, but i belong to them...and tears of joy flow...at times like these the deepest sense of belonging is felt... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katt1227 Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 Brooke- I know how you feel. I came home for Christmas Break, and got to spend time with my friends, many of which I hadn't seen since at least Thanksgiving if not before then. It was beautiful. My heart leapt when I saw their faces, heard their voices. I knew that I belonged to them, and they to me. I knew that no matter how much time had passed or how many miles away I was, I was with them in their hearts, and they with me. But, all the time I was so glad to be home, to be with my friends that I loved and missed so dearly, all I could think about was my friends at school. And how much I missed them. It's so difficult when you live in two places. Neither and both feel like home. But this tension between school and home, between Evansville and Lexington lets me know that I belong there too. It gives me strength and courage to stay with my friends in Lexington because I finally feel like I belong to them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 21, 2004 Share Posted January 21, 2004 okay, i'm throwing out a question b/c i cannot stop thinking about it...go figure... how does this sense of belonging affect you? if you feel like you belong, then what is different about you and others than when you are in a place that you do not feel that sense of belonging? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BLAZEr Posted January 21, 2004 Share Posted January 21, 2004 Ok, this weekend at the Diakonia, I felt like I belonged. The people there, I loved. I cannot explain why I loved them, other than to say that my desire for their happiness was intense. I wante d to be someone who made the people I met happy. I wanted to be a presence to them. In the same way, I felt that for myself. There are many times I encounter people who just want me to go away. Who just want me to fit into their life and not be open to who I am. But this weekend, I felt like people shared my desires with me. That these people were people who wanted me the same way I wanted them. So I felt I belonged, because we wanted for each other what the other wanted. Happiness. And we belonged because we both belong to another. At least for me, this was overwhelming. This was beautiful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
track2004 Posted January 21, 2004 Share Posted January 21, 2004 So basically I just openned this page and I knew from the start it was going to be a CL thing (good GS kids recognize these key words). And now that I've read it I feel compeled to talk. I think I talk here more than I do at GS... There is that sense of belonging that I can feel when I walk into the Upper Room for GS, and to explain it is insanely hard, but easy at the same time. It's hard because of the complex mix of emotions I feel, but easier because I know you have expereinced it yourselves. When I get to GS and walk up those stair I can feel myself becoming more at home in my own body. I am no longer in the school mode or the home mode or the friends mode, when I get to GS I am Kate, just Kate. I feel like I belong there because I can be myself. The difference between that room and those people and the rooms and people at school is how I present myself. It's not that I completely act different at school, but there is a definate change in how I act in either place. At school I tend to hide :ph34r: (ya I just wanted to use that one), even with friends and family I am reserved. But with GS or HRYG or my really good friends I let it go. That's why I feel like I belong becuase I am accepted. At GS the people see (or are trying to see) that Christ lives in every person so they get this part of me that is so baffiling to the rest of the world. I belong to the places where I am welcomed and loved and cherished, and where I do the same for others. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katt1227 Posted January 22, 2004 Share Posted January 22, 2004 Belonging. When I am in a place where I belong, when I'm with people I belong to I am more open, I am more of myself. I am more myself when I'm with you, my friends, the people I belong to. When I struggle with belonging, when I don't recognize Christ's Presence in the people I'm with, I am less of myself. I am less human. I can feel myself slipping away into the Nothingness. That is why I stay, I stay in front of those who I belong to, because without their presence in my life, I am less of myself. I want to be the fullest version of myself. I want to be open, so that Christ's presence pours out of me and when I am with my friends, the ones I belong to, I am more capable of this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 22, 2004 Share Posted January 22, 2004 There is that sense of belonging that I can feel when I walk into the Upper Room for GS, and to explain it is insanely hard, but easy at the same time. It's hard because of the complex mix of emotions I feel, but easier because I know you have expereinced it yourselves. When I get to GS and walk up those stair I can feel myself becoming more at home in my own body. I am no longer in the school mode or the home mode or the friends mode, when I get to GS I am Kate, just Kate. I feel like I belong there because I can be myself. AMEN KATE!!! that is so amazing!! honestly, when i can be just Brooke, myself, who i really am, is when sense that belonging.... and accepted....man, i hear ya!!! you're the bomb..did i tell you that lately??? :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
track2004 Posted January 27, 2004 Share Posted January 27, 2004 This is more just a question about belonging. After rereading what I wrote only a matter of days ago, I am confused. I said I feel like I belong at GS, yet I never feel comfortable enough to actually talk. Most days I think of something, but refrain from actually sharing it, then I invariable tell Schmandi and she gets all upset because she says I should have said what ever it was I was thinking. I never feel comfortable enough, heck I don't even feel comfortable enough on Phatmass to start my own topic. So do I actually belong? or am I just fooling myself into believing I do? or am I really that uncomfortable sharing in large groups (yes 12 is large)? I'm not going to change what I've said, but sorry for not wording it better. Oh well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Katt1227 Posted January 27, 2004 Share Posted January 27, 2004 Talking and sharing has little to do with if you belong. There are several people I belong to that I can sit in almost silence and we can share all that we need to share to be ourselves. This summer, my best friend and I would sit at my kitchen table and do crosswords in pretty much silence (except the occasional question or plea for help) but we shared an experience that was just as deep as some of the conversations I've had with people. Me, personally, I'm talkative. Most people who know me know that. However, I don't talk that much when I'm with my Cl friends. I don't alwyas share what I'm thinking, because although I like to talk, words tend to fail me. I often can't find the words to express what's going on in my head, or if I do, it isn't until much later. That's one of the reasons I'm drawn to Brooke, she asks questions that float around in my head with no words. But this lack of words doesn't mean that I don't belong to these people, my friends. Hope this helped. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
track2004 Posted January 27, 2004 Share Posted January 27, 2004 The thing is, Katt, words don't often fail me. I usually sit on the couch in the Upper Room and know what I would like to say, but refrain from saying it. And it's not one of those times when I can just sit and be silent. Something inside me wants to talk, but another part of me it too timid (or something). If Vince of Brandi asks me directly I can usually say it, but that rarely happens (and don't make it happen more Brandi). I end up having this long drawn out inner dialogue and not listening to the group discussion and getting lost. I just wonder if I am really just that insecure in a group of people or if it's something else. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 27, 2004 Share Posted January 27, 2004 That's one of the reasons I'm drawn to Brooke, she asks questions that float around in my head with no words. :sadder: :wub: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 27, 2004 Share Posted January 27, 2004 The thing is, Katt, words don't often fail me. I usually sit on the couch in the Upper Room and know what I would like to say, but refrain from saying it. And it's not one of those times when I can just sit and be silent. Something inside me wants to talk, but another part of me it too timid (or something). If Vince of Brandi asks me directly I can usually say it, but that rarely happens (and don't make it happen more Brandi). I end up having this long drawn out inner dialogue and not listening to the group discussion and getting lost. I just wonder if I am really just that insecure in a group of people or if it's something else. I will be praying for your boldness to be able to share!!! especially if you are thinking it and really want to say it...b/c some times mine are thoughts that i cannot put into words that make sense so i stay quiet....but with you, if i'm hearing you right--its just a matter of opening your mouth and letting the words flow... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 29, 2004 Share Posted January 29, 2004 I think that "belonging" is one of the most important things in life. Jesus obviously saw the importance of it or He wouldn't have created a church. We would all be going at it alone. I think that you hit something...ALONE...we don't have to do it alone...we are not alone and when we feel that we are not alone, we feel that we belong...a dear friend of mine put my thoughts into words last night that i could not put together...and together we agreed that belonging has to do with not feeling alone...more than physical alone...but alone in a deeper sense....i have not done justice in expressing this but where i fail at doing so i pray others will step in... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DesiringMore Posted January 30, 2004 Share Posted January 30, 2004 bump :dance: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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