Ash Wednesday Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 Hi friends, I'm not doing so well right now since my mom died. Our parish priest is out of town and I feel so awful that he had to be gone when my mom passed away, because it makes it harder not having him to talk to. I have so many thoughts running in my head -- and it probably doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping so well. I had to get away from the house and back to my apartment to get away from it all. I just feel so horrible and distraught and I feel like God was so far enough away before.. and I feel guilty for thinking and feeling frustrations with God, though I am not angry at him. I know he has a plan but it is hard to feel that way right now. I don't want to have these selfish thoughts, because I know mom would be a lot happier in heaven than she is here. I feel guilty for having thoughts like wondering if God is kicking me in the face for my sins, or what. I don't will to have these thoughts. And I'm trying to do the best I can, but it's just awful. The majority of my family isn't exactly model Catholics (not unbelievers though) and I get distraught about a lot of things right now. I automatically have these thoughts like I feel like I have to be saving and converting and taking care of everyone and I should be speaking up when they say things related to the Church I don't agree with, but it just... it's just too much right now. I'm offering up my sufferings for souls. I feel guilty that I'm not doing more though... please help me and pray for us. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jmjtina Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 You and your family definitely have my prayers. My little brother steven woke up today and told us before he went to bed last night he prayed for everyone on phatmass. So you have an 8 year old praying for you too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
littleflower+JMJ Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 you are in my prayers Ash!! stay strong. run to Jesus in the Most Blessed Sacrament. leave your hurt, pain and loss to him. know that healing does not happen over nite, healing takes time. and know that your phamily is praying for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GodsThespianChic Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 I'm praying for you...losing someone close to you has to be the worst pain to feel...your phamily is here for ya! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IcePrincessKRS Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 You're in my prayers as well. *hugs* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anna Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 Your mom can do more for you and your family right now, too... Her sudden death may bring some of them, over the next days and weeks, to consider their own mortality, their judgement day...And your Faith in Him will be witness enough...A silent witness of your loss of your earthly mother and gaining a powerful intercessor. Someone mentioned to me at the time of my mom's death, that we're like flowers in a garden. When God goes out to pick a flower to adorn heaven, he chooses the prettiest buds and blossoms, not the dried, wilting weeds. Your Mom must be fragrancing heaven with her prayers of praise and adoration! Even if she's in Purgatory, her prayers are for YOU and for YOUR FAMILY, as the souls cannot pray for themselves, but only for others. Take hold of your mother's hand and pray with her and for her. Let the ignorant see your Faith and Strength and Courage. And don't feel that tears are a sign of weakness; they're signs of love. I send my guardian angel to console you, Ash...may his wings surround and envelope you. Pax Christi. <>< Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lil Red Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 Anna - you just made ME cry! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carrie Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 ::hugs:: Ash, you are in my prayers. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lounge Daddy Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 Know that I will be visiting our local Adoration Chapel tonight… I will offer up our prayers for you and your family tonight. God Bless you and your family. Hang on, hang on tight. You have a very big spiritual family that loves you a lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dave Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 I wish there was something I could say to help, but when it comes to stuff like this, words escape me. Just know, Ash, that you're in my prayers, and that's something that will NEVER change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Faithful heart Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 You are in my prayers God shall wipe the tears from their eyes,and there shall be no more death, nor crying, neither shall there be anymore pain; for former things are passed away. -proverb The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. -Psalm 34:18 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anna Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 ((((We love ya, Ash.)))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
breauxlg Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 I am praying for you right now. In Christ, Lynn Breaux Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ironmonk Posted November 11, 2003 Share Posted November 11, 2003 You have my prayers. Love in Christ, max Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VeraMaria Posted November 12, 2003 Share Posted November 12, 2003 Praying for you, Ash. God Bless you. Stay strong!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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