Balthazor Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 So here is the thing. I have done a lot of things in the past that I really regret doing. I can never undo them, I can be forgiven, but I will always have that baggage. I know this, I know that I will never be on the same level as all of you "nice" girls here on phatmass, and you can judge me, You have a right to. For one I am far from being a virgin, these sins are perhaps my biggest regrets. What can I do now? Can't undo it now can I? Then there is a slew of other things, combined with my surly disposition. You guys were kinda proding me at why I don't want to get married.... well there it is. I don't even want to date anymore. I have made such a mess of everything I am surprised that God would even want me. So perhaps it is not that I do not want to get married, so much as I realize and accept that I have little chance of having anyone want me. After all who the hell would want damaged goods, when you can have a beautiful Catholic girl that didn't f*** up years before? I am screwed folks. Anyway as for my dear friends out there that are in a state of mourning because a bunch of skanky girls or bad boys don't give them the time of day. Be happy. You don't want it, you really don't it only leads to bad things. The right person will come along for you guys, and you have the added benefit of being able to demand respect, a right I forfieted 4 years ago. That is really all I have to say. I would like some responses, but I really don't expect too many. I seem to have a talent for starting dull threads that die as soon as they are released . Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 :wub: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 :wub: you're so baltic. :hearts: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Balthazor Posted January 28, 2005 Author Share Posted January 28, 2005 thank you. I needed that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 [quote name='Balthazor' date='Jan 27 2005, 11:49 PM'] After all who the hell would want damaged goods, when you can have a beautiful Catholic girl that didn't f*** up years before? I am screwed folks. [/quote] Sorry...I didn't realize there were so many perfect Catholic girls. Nevermind. :wub: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 aw you shouldn't think that there is no one out there for you!! i know so many awesome Catholic women who are now very happily married with numerous children who didn't wait for marriage. things can turn around!! you have to choose to put those things behind you, after all, Jesus has!! You shouldn't be so hard on yourself but rather use that energy towards more positive things that can help you move on with your life. You seem like a really awesome gal and I wouldn't doubt you will be happily married soon enough. God has something wonderful still for you, I know it!! How could He not for such a woman of God? I have faith in the person that you are and/or want to be. The very things you have just written show me that. Don't be discouraged. He is out there waiting.... and when God says 'now'.... it will happen and it will be the best thing ever and prolly better than you could ever imagine because you had to endure the wait. Maybe God is trying to teach you something? Something about life, about yourself? Pray. Pray hard. ... and know that we still think youre great!! God bless you now and always!! ~Laura Thomas~ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
picchick Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 You are right you can never undo what was done in the past. But there is always hope. Someone once told me this. "OH and Meg there is always Hope. Whether people want it or not is another matter." There is always hope for a new life. NEVER forget what was done in the past because you can use that to help you in the future. If it is God's Will for you to be married then he is going to find you someone who will see you as the changed woman you are and take you and love you for you. Meg Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paladin D Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 No such thing as a perfect Catholic girl. You saw the wrong in your actions which already gives you an advantage, compared to someone who is jealous and is not repentant. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crusader1234 Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 Tons of people would be willing to look past your indiscretions. Anyone thats ever walked the earth knows what it is like to repent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lil Red Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 balthazor, have you ever heard God writes straight with crooked lines or something along that? i had sex with my hubby before we were married, and we lived together. two biggie strikes against our relationship and against us. now, though, i strive harder and harder for holiness everyday, even though i fail. i was never the perfect Catholic girl, didn't ever pretend to be. but God has blessed my hubby and i with many graces to overcome our past sin. God bless. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1337 k4th0l1x0r Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 Do not worry about your baggage. The idea that a guy or girl would only want someone who had never had sex or even kissed a guy is like the idea that God doesn't want people who have sinned in the past. You should seek Jesus in a potential husband, so if a guy you're interested can't get past your past, then he's not a good model of Jesus. Granted, it might be difficult for that guy, but a good Catholic man will know that forgiving a woman of her sins is part of what St. Paul commends us to do in his letter to the Ephesians. Besides, no one is sinless. Even if the guy you marry is a virgin, he's got his own sins that he's committed. We might think that no one will want us for our sins, but that would end up being the attitude of everyone unless we realize that in accepting others we're getting closer to being with God. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Balthazor Posted January 28, 2005 Author Share Posted January 28, 2005 I have to say that the worst part of it is that I have always been a very religious and devoted Catholic.....well you know within reason. I have never seriously doubted God's Existence, I have never turned away from the church. Through this whole time I have only rarely missed Mass. Also it isn't like I did something stupid and got drunk and was only half coherant when I committed these sins. I knew exactly what I was doing. This makes it worse. I would really like to say that I was once a lost little lamb that has just found the light. But I am not, I have always been more of like one of the good shepards sheep-dogs going wolf. Herding sheep during the day and killing the sheeps at night. I am having a hard time here. Especially, since I found out that there is this whole world of people who have marvelously been preserved from sin. It really is miraculous to me you see, and it brings sharp focus onto my own faults. It appears the fault-lines are much deeper than I had originally realized, and there are many more than I thought. It really is disconcerting to me. Sure things are great now, but the past will always come back to forgive my unpleasant disposition in the ***. I don't know what to do with it. So I throw myself into travel, and into my career. So far those are the things I have not screwed up yet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 Ha! We're so perfect! I know. *whispers* (Except you, TCW!) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
waldo Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 Although I am repeating everyone else no one is perfect or even close. We all sin. Enjoy your travels and great luck with you career. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Balthazor Posted January 28, 2005 Author Share Posted January 28, 2005 [quote name='Lil Red' date='Jan 28 2005, 12:10 AM'] balthazor, have you ever heard God writes straight with crooked lines or something along that? i had sex with my hubby before we were married, and we lived together. two biggie strikes against our relationship and against us. now, though, i strive harder and harder for holiness everyday, even though i fail. i was never the perfect Catholic girl, didn't ever pretend to be. but God has blessed my hubby and i with many graces to overcome our past sin. God bless. [/quote] I appreciate your trying to comfort me red, you are very sweet. But really you had premarital sex with one guy.....and you married him. I am saddened to relay that I have you beat here on several counts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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