theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 Hey Y'all, I was thinking today, what is my vocation? I know we have a board for that and everything, but I'm too lame for that board. I once inquired at a seminary, and they told me that because of my medical history, I was unfit for entry into the seminary. My heart really wasn't in it anyway, but it gets me to thinking, what am I called to do? My medical history really changes things. I'm probably going to die young because of my medicine. (by young I mean fourties or fifties). That really doesn't bother me right now, although I imagine these twenty years are going to pass by pretty fast. Maybe when the time comes I'll feel differently, but I've practically begged God to take me to Heaven. I just think of it as an answered prayer. But the question is, what can I do with twenty years. Like I was saying on another board...we all have to suffer, we all have to die...the question is, what do I want to suffer and die for? Or perhaps, Who, rather than what. I have often imagined myself as a father...but in twenty years, twenty five at most...what will I do? Leave my twelve little apostles orphans? Leave a mother to raise several young children? Also there's the possibility that my disease is genetic. So leaving my wife a widow to raise my schizophrenic children? That would almost be cruel...I just wish I could get a woman to agree to it! So, the priesthood is out...and you can tell me if I'm thinking too hard about this, but it looks like marriage is out. Don't get me wrong...all my doctors say that I can have the same things in life as anybody else...but they also say the medicine's not showing any side effects, which is a lie. My brother (pharmacist) told me about a psychiatrist named Dr. Peter Breggin, who advocates a "psychosocial" approach the psychiatry, in which medicine is rarely used, if at all. There could come a time when I will find a "Breggin brand" psychiatrist and try to get off my medicine...that might change things, but I fear it has already done permanent damage. I already show signs of "tardive dyskenesia." This is something like what was once called the "thorazine shuffle." I've been taking the medicine for a long time, and often the side effects are permenant, they permenantly change the brain. It's really not so bad right now, I just walk funny, blink alot, and make some weird facial expressions. I've seen worse. Actually I thank God for the quality of life I enjoy. Well, to sum up, would you marry a guy like me? Just curious, TCW Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 TCW, Though I am not a female, I shall answer your question. When you get married the priest is going to say for life. It doesn't matter for 2 minutes or 75 years it is until death does you part. Whoever the lucky woman you marry is she will love you and want to marry you even if it is only twenty years. Moreover, stranger things have happened. A few years ago "everyone" was saying that JPII was going to die. My late grandfather was given months and lasted years. Just because a doctor says 20 years doesn't mean that it is set 20 years. Moreover, scientific knowledge doubles every 12 years. Futhermore, there is a lot of promise is adult stem cells. I wouldn't dispear, sci still may grant a break through. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Author Share Posted October 3, 2004 [quote name='Iacobus' date='Oct 2 2004, 09:57 PM'] TCW, Though I am not a female, I shall answer your question. [/quote] mister peterson says the quesion is whether or not you would marry a guy like me. That mister peterson! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
voiciblanche Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 Now, I'm fifteen years younger than you, but speaking theoretically, the answer'd probably be yes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 If I wasn't male, lol, maybe. As a male I could say I would enjoy your company, lol, your post make me laugh soooo much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StColette Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 (edited) From a girls point of view: Would I marry a guy like you? the answer would be yes I'll explain to you why. You said that the medicine that you must take has resulted in the possibility of you dying at a younger age than the normality. My view on this is, love is not determined by time. That ultimate love that brings two people together happens for a reason. It doesn't matter what other elements seem to be in the way of or that may render it, love is greater than all of those things. For example, if I were to fall in love with someone who was dying of a fatal disease and I knew that they weren't guaranteed a long life, but I knew in my heart that he was the person that God made me for, and that he is the one I'm supposed to marry and be with, then I would marry him no question, because God has lead me to him for a reason. And when he passes away I would know how blessed I was to have him for the time that I did, and that I would not trade those moments for anything, nor would I wish to go back and change everything if given the choice. God has His plan made out for us and He lets certain events happen in our lives for reasons, though we may not understand them. God Bless, Jennie Edited October 3, 2004 by StColette Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i feel like im taking crzy pills Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 TCW~ The question was: Would I marry a guy like you? My answer: Most definately! Although I am, ahem, younger than both you and mister Peterson, I would gladly pledge my life to you if it was what God really wanted. Although I might be a litte upset of having to raise children on my own, if that would ever happen, I know that it would all be all right in the end. WoW TCW, your post made me think. Am I ever going to find the person that God made just for me? I hope so... Anyways, take care! *Hug to you and mister peterson* ~Lauren Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Author Share Posted October 3, 2004 thanks everybody. I was hoping you all would say no so I could quit my job and be a street musician. Oh well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
azaelia Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 (edited) If I was in love I would. Edited October 3, 2004 by azaelia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Author Share Posted October 3, 2004 mister peterson wants to know if that was directed to him or me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
azaelia Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 You. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Author Share Posted October 3, 2004 mister peterson says is that you (pl.) or you (singular) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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theculturewarrior Posted October 3, 2004 Author Share Posted October 3, 2004 mister peterson says what's the antecedent? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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