immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 I've been secretly struggling with my faith for a long time, and tonight it's confronting me face to face. Please offer up prayers for my soul. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luthien Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 Definantly! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Piccoli Fiori JMJ Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 I will say a few, starting with a Hail Mary, RIGHT NOW! May Mary Protect you in her Mantle... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thy Geekdom Come Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 We all love you, Immaculata! Our prayers are with you. Post your intention here: [url="http://www.bellwetheromaha.org/Forms/PrayerReq.htm"]http://www.bellwetheromaha.org/Forms/PrayerReq.htm[/url] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
curtins Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 sure thing immaculeta- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 Praying, I know what it is like, kinda. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Author Share Posted September 28, 2004 i always thought that i was the one who had everything figured out, but now i guess i'm realizing that i've been putting on an act for a long time, you know? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rachael Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 [quote name='immaculata' date='Sep 27 2004, 09:42 PM'] i always thought that i was the one who had everything figured out, but now i guess i'm realizing that i've been putting on an act for a long time, you know? [/quote] you know what? we all do that from time to time. you are definately not alone in this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Author Share Posted September 28, 2004 i'm having this conversation with a friend right now that kind of explains it: Katrina: i've just been having some serious doubts about my faith lately, and this conversation i'm having with matt is making me come face to face with a lot of doubts and things Catherine: oh goodness.... okay.. I will most certainy be praying Katrina: thank you :-) Catherine: no prob Katrina: i never really saw myself as this weak Catherine: :-( awww Katrina: i always thought that i was the one who had everything figured out, but now i guess i'm realizing that i've been putting on an act for a long time, you know? Catherine: yeah Catherine: like are you like doubting and then thinking you're leading yourself into hypocracy? Katrina: i don't know.. it's like.. Katrina: i've never really forgiven him for our fight and what we went through last year Katrina: and i thought that i had like moved on and started a new life, and part of that was shunning him and pushing him away as much as i could Katrina: like, i tried to build this tough exterior so that he couldn't hurt me again Katrina: and finally tonight he confronted me about it and said that it's really ruining everyone's reputation of me when i'm so rude to him Katrina: and i realize that he's right, but i don't want to admit it because i don't want to give in and let him have the upper hand again Katrina: and now i'm just kind of questioning everything, because he's saying that i'm not acting christian and i'm starting to wonder exactly what it means to be a christian Catherine: .....wow Katrina: i try so hard to be good catherine, i really do Katrina: it's just SO hard sometimes Catherine: I know Katrina... I know Katrina: and i WANT to be happy, i just don't know how Katrina: i thought that i would be happy if i made matt pay for everything that he put me through Catherine: yes, but Jesus never sought revenge and look what He went through.... Katrina: i don't know how to be like that!! Catherine: revenge has never solved any of the world;s problems... Catherine: and it's not worth it Katrina: i'm so stubborn, i don't want to admit that he's right Katrina: mostly, i don't want to admit that i'm wrong Katrina: it's like, i don't want to trust him, and i don't want to trust anything he has to say about religion Katrina: i'm such a terrible person :'( Catherine: I take it he's Catholic? Katrina: yeah Katrina: very much so.. lol Catherine: okay Katrina: you ever watch the show "angel force" on ewtn? he's on there Catherine: oh really? okay Katrina: he was supposed to perform at the catholic family conference but they had to drop out.. Catherine: i was there this weekend Katrina: yeah i wish i could have gone :-) Katrina: mmm it's kind of like, i'm in love with the- catholic church, but i don't know how to love god Katrina: :-\ Katrina: if that makes any sense Catherine: indeed it does Katrina: i'm just so utterly confused right now Katrina: i dunno.. i feel like i've been leading you and erin and sarah and jenni on, pretending like i'm this great catholic when i'm really not Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thy Geekdom Come Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 [quote name='immaculata' date='Sep 27 2004, 08:42 PM'] i always thought that i was the one who had everything figured out, but now i guess i'm realizing that i've been putting on an act for a long time, you know? [/quote] Rachael's right. Many people have had the same struggle. Just keep clinging to everything you know and keep praying. God loves you, as you know, and I promise you He will make everything all right. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Author Share Posted September 28, 2004 see, that's the problem, I'm not even sure if it's worth it to keep persevering! I feel like I've just been running around in circles!! How do I know that this religion is even true? I know it's terrible for me to say that... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Author Share Posted September 28, 2004 ha.. i'm prolly going to get knocked down to "phishy" for that last post.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted September 28, 2004 Author Share Posted September 28, 2004 Sometimes I wonder if God is even there, or if we are the most pitiable of geniuses...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thy Geekdom Come Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 Awww, Katrina...I think you're a good Catholic. Do you want to know why? Because when you notice some sin or flaw in your spirit, you confront it and want to make it better. We all have our problems and we all feel at times that we're not being good Catholics, and it's true that we can always improve, but being holy at any given moment isn't so much the point of Catholicism as becoming better. It's about the effort we put into changing for the better, and I promise you that you are trying do be a better person because it's very clear from the way you've talked about it in this thread, and I can also promise you that it will bear fruit. God bless you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Piccoli Fiori JMJ Posted September 28, 2004 Share Posted September 28, 2004 [quote name='immaculata' date='Sep 27 2004, 07:57 PM'] Sometimes I wonder if God is even there, or if we are the most pitiable of geniuses...... [/quote] I have had that one come to me many many times... i try to ignore it, and go on Then I find that when in His presence, I know it is true... It is a very hard battle! Just remember to never give up fighting against satan and the doubts he puts in your head! We are always here to pray for you! Never give up hope and PRAY! We love you dearly! Don't give into satan's taunting and temptations! God Bless and Mary Protect! Yours in the Most Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary, Angela Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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