DancesforLove Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 I have heart problems and cricketphobia lol it's true oh and hearing/vision problems and severe alergies to certain things, I'm just a messed up chica lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ash Wednesday Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 [quote name='DancesforLove' date='Aug 31 2004, 08:18 PM'] I have heart problems and cricketphobia lol it's true oh and hearing/vision problems and severe alergies to certain things, I'm just a messed up chica lol [/quote] But you dance for love! That makes life worthwhile.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
reelguy227 Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 [quote name='T-Bone' date='Aug 30 2004, 11:57 PM'] My hypochondria is so bad, I actually have to take a placebo for it... [/quote] Whats a placebo ? I might have heart problems ,Ill be getting an E.K.G. at my next Physical.Pray that all goes well. Reelguy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DancesforLove Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 you are right ash, I start classes on thursday woohoo lol. I suffer from depression too, my parents are struggling about sending me to a shrink right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest T-Bone Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 [quote name='reelguy227' date='Aug 31 2004, 08:29 PM'] Whats a placebo ? I might have heart problems ,Ill be getting an E.K.G. at my next Physical.Pray that all goes well. Reelguy [/quote] It's a sugar pill...used in drug studies and for hypochondriacs...I was being sarcastic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 [quote name='Raphael' date='Aug 29 2004, 08:30 AM'] I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. I'm Obsessive Compulsive. Phew...7 times...I'm okay now... I really am obsessive compulsive. [/quote] I'm obsessive compulsive. 8. I can rest now. Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 (edited) Okay finally through all of the posts. Phew. That last post I made wasn't a joke. I cant stand odd numbers. Everything has to be even. I like things in groups of fours best. I don't know why but that's what I like. When I was little I used to count lamp posts when I would ride in the car. From wherever we were to wherever it was we went I would count them and if they weren't even I had to make myself believe that there HAD been an even number but that id missed one. im not at all joking. my parents never knew this though. it was always to myself. it wasnt until a couple of years ago when they noticed a few things that they asked me about and i told them all about it. i really dont like thinking that i have OCD. i feel like it makes me weird. it makes me different from everyone. i dont live a normal life. its hard. i have a really hard time concentrating at school because of this. sometimes i have to leave the classroom to regain composure and start over again. ash wednesday was talking about how her ex-boyfriend had "blinking rituals." i have "blinking rituals" i guess you could say. they arent necessarily something i do at certain times but if i notice myself blinking i have to do it four times or in sets of four and if im doing more than once then i notice that im not only having to blink four times but also in four sets of four. its really hard to break myself of this too because once i notice myself blinking i cant help but notice when i do it again. she also talked about her boyfriend whispering things under his breath. whenever i say something i say it to myself four times. a lot of times when i repeat them it is because i have caught myself saying something. its only when i am not really heated or upset about something though. sometimes i distract myself enough that i dont have to think about it. another thing is that when i make a movement i have to do it four times. this sometimes gets embarassing and i think this is why im always worried about people staring at me. the other day in my theatre class i looked over to the side pretty quickly and after looking i had to resume position and do it again three times. that made it four. people laughed at me and asked me what i was doing. i tried to play it off. i tried to laugh. i succeeded but inside i was dying. like i said its really really hard to live with. when i have to go to the bathroom i sometimes will not turn on the light because if i do i have to do it four times. and when you turn on the light that is one flip. so one two one two one two one. the light is now on but you havent completed your fourth set. for those of you who arent following me that means that the light is now on but its an odd number which means that i have to deal with that until im ready to leave and i can finally come to that even number im so "obessessed" with having. my parents sometimes get really annoyed with me saying that im too slow because i have to do these things. i try really hard not to but then it really really bothers me. i know it sounds stupid but if i dont do things in even numbers i can feel it in my body. my inside gets very uncomfortable. whenever i have that even number my body feels right again. i wish that werent the case but it is and i have to deal with it. i could go on forever explaining the other things that plague me because of this disorder. the list seems almost endless. if you read my past posts you will notice that usually punctuation is done in fours. the compliment thread is prolly the best example of that. anyway i didnt mean to bore anyone. i just thought id share. some people talk about having to have books in height order and stuff. i wish that were the only thing that bothered me. or rather i wish all the things that bothered me were that simple. people wouldnt stare or laugh because i liked height order. i could put something that way and make it stay. i wouldnt have to give it away to people. just fyi i do like that too but again there are things worse that i have to deal with. my biggest thing is that i offer it up. whenever people laugh at me i think of Christ's suffering and tell myself that i can deal. If Christ can die on the cross for my sins then i can offer up the pain for Him that i endure. okay so one last thing. OCD is not my only problem. i have a stuttering problem. i get made fun of for that too. my dad has the same problem. its not very apparent most of the time but when i get really sleepy i cant get things out. people laugh at me for that too but i think without realizing how much it hurts my feelings because of the fact that i cant control it. thats prolly the one bond my dad and i really share. God bless you all!!!! edit... just a few typos. Edited September 1, 2004 by hugheyforlife Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carnanc Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 disorders. well I definitly have social anxiety, and some other types of anxiety. all of my negative thought patterns are really hard to break, but I think i'm starting to get better, meaning more social. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 i feel like every person on this board has a social disorder but there again i think every person in the world does to some extent.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 did i mention i chew an even number of times too.... usually in fours though not just even numbers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest T-Bone Posted September 2, 2004 Share Posted September 2, 2004 You are in my prayers. I know alot of people that go on anti-depressents get help for compulsive disorders. I know when I went on them, mine decreased (I was on them for depression). Didn't like the headaches I got from them though. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 2, 2004 Share Posted September 2, 2004 .... im just content with finally admitting that theres something wrong with me.... for a long time i didnt want to do that that was hard all i ask is for prayers, not only for me, but for everyone on here suffering from a disorder God bless you all!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
franciscanheart Posted September 4, 2004 Share Posted September 4, 2004 this was a cool thread.... then i came in.... and everyone stopped posting haha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ash Wednesday Posted September 4, 2004 Share Posted September 4, 2004 [quote name='hugheyforlife' date='Sep 1 2004, 07:57 AM'] another thing is that when i make a movement i have to do it four times. this sometimes gets embarassing and i think this is why im always worried about people staring at me. the other day in my theatre class i looked over to the side pretty quickly and after looking i had to resume position and do it again three times. that made it four. people laughed at me and asked me what i was doing. i tried to play it off. i tried to laugh. i succeeded but inside i was dying. [/quote] May my guardian angel, and yours, wrap their wings with God's love around you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gonzaga Posted September 4, 2004 Share Posted September 4, 2004 [color=green]Wow, hearing all these people with OCD. I have it too, but I have not talked to anyone about it. I was always doing 'rituals' when I was younger, (I knew the sequence of every flight of stairs in my school so I could finish on an even number) and even now I still do it. But I secretly wanted to get help, but I felt...ahhhhh this is hard. Anyway, It was getting really worse recently( having to sit down loads of time, to get it 'right'), among the usual things I do. I realised I had to change as it was getting me down, affecting my work, I think people realised, and it hurt me, I felt weird. I really prayed for help, now I feel better, sometimes when I feel the urge to do things I think that Jesus does not want me to do it, instead of going thru and back a doorway a few times, I walk straight through( it is very hard sometimes) into Jesus. I know we all cope with things differently, and I am sitll coping, if anyone wants to talk about it just send me a message. Cos' I know how you feel.[/color] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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