Unsure

[Tab'le De'Bah-Rye]

St Benedict "prefer nothing whatsoever to christ" the lord has captured me and I don't know what to do. I'm not supremely interested in anything of this world, not woman, not having children, not entertainment, not career, not strength, not blood ties, nothing much at all. What do I do, im 40 this year not able to work, no real desire to be a priest or brother.

Please pray for me for an increased desire to pray, meditate, be still and think ans study the bible and other holy writings. And not only the desire but the action. I need to get this religious part of me back on track bcoz for 9yrs I've been in and out of drugs and alcohol not knowing what to do, the lord captured me immediately when he spoke to me but then the devil has been working overtime to try and drive me away from the truth but I can't go back to the lies its impossible I neither know or understand the ways of this world and am tired of trying to be something I'm not. I'm all His.

Thanks.

GodblesS.