Still suffering pretty bad

[Ash Wednesday]

Just need your prayers today. I am still hurting pretty bad from Red Skin Syndrome/Topical Steroid Addiction/Withdrawal. I've been going through this for about 17 months now. I know it will take at least 2-3 years for me to really recover but I'm still crawling through life and this condition also even makes it difficult for me to make it to mass these days. Because I can't exercise like I used to, I'm starting to have sciatica flare ups as well. I haven't cooked in over a year and if I'm not crawling to work, I'm either in bed or in a bathtub. I am also very, very depressed. 

Part of me wants to go back on the drugs that caused this so I don't have to suffer, but I fear that will just delay more problems down the road. 

Please pray that I can heal soon. There is only so much of this a person can take.