Struggling with an urge for vindication

[beatitude]

About this time last year a friend did something that was pretty cruel and left me badly hurt. I tried to keep our friendship afloat, because I felt (and still feel) that his judgment and decision-making had been overshadowed by his mental illness, and he hadn't really meant to hurt me. In the end the effort of repairing the friendship hurt me even more as he could not accept that he'd done anything wrong, and I had to withdraw. I've had no contact with him now for ten months. It helps that we're in different countries.

I know that he has not told the truth about his behaviour to our mutual acquaintances over there and he gave a malicious picture of me. They don't know what he did; they think I stopped talking to him for a different reason. I never told any of them what happened or corrected their misperceptions of me, because it would have done me no good (they've never been close to me and I can't be hurt by their bad opinion) and might have caused him some harm. But now, one year on, I'm struggling with a resurgence of bad memories from that time, and with it an urge to vindicate myself. There is a desire for some revenge mixed in there too. Please pray for me to get the better of it.

I feel as if I could move on if I had an apology from him, but I know that's something I'm unlikely to ever hear. Please pray for God's will to be done and for us both to have peace.