I'm so tired

[Ice_nine]

I'm just exhausted. I work anywhere from 48-53 hours a week, I'm a bundle of nerves, I think about dying a lot (don't worry I'm not going to do anything drastic, can't get rid of me that easily ;)). I should probably see a doctor, but finding mental healthcare is kind of a pain in the ass in every way possible, esp when I don't really feel motivated to do nothin.

Sometimes I feel guilty for feeling this way because I'm fairly sure my life is easier than 90% of the people out there and I feel like I'm overreacting. Just feel like a bag of croutons most of the time. My faith isn't really super strong now to add to things.

Thanks phamly.