For my sister who is in rehab for beer

[NadaTeTurbe]

It's really hard for me to write this. My sister is 30 years old and she have been a drugaddict from 16 to 27. Now she have a little job. She's still addicted to beer, though. She asked - by herself !! - to go in rehab. She will be going in a week. Pray for her recovery. She's on a good way. 

I've always had a complicated relationship with my sister. She doesn't know it, my family doesn't know it - they all said how much I'm good to be so kind with her when growing up with her was a living hell. But the truth is that I am an hypocrite, because in my heart I have anger and aversion for her. I do my best when she's here because I don't want to hurt her or my mom - I know what I'm feeling is wrong, and it works, but I'm not honest. I wish I could forgive her and love her unconditionally. I think it's  "childhoohd reflex" that I have. Thank you.