Husband's Depression/anxiety

[CoffeeCatholic]

My dear husband suffers from severe depression and anxiety.

 

And I suffer from his depression and anxiety.  so do our 4 kids.  There are times I just desperately want to be able to throw in the towel.  To feel love again from him would be....unimaginable.  He can't process any emotions except fear and anger right now.  And hasn't for a very long time. He loves his job, teaching, and admits that he only has problems with depression and anxiety at home.  I don't know what to do!  I've done everything!  Any complaint, i've attended to it.  I'm up late tonight doing all sort of jobs and laundry and will be up before him in the morning to take care of the farm so he doesn't have to.  I just want him back, the man who swept me off my feet 10 years ago.  But he's not coming back, and I have to learn to love him more for who he is now.  Even if I never feel love from him ever again.