Stuck In A Rut

[Ice_nine]

I don't think I'm in a terribly unique situation. I'm a recent college grad with student loans to pay back and life figuring out to do. Not one of those highly motivated/competitive persons able to "succeed" in the  "real world" so easily. I need a job, I need to get my life going in some sort of direction because I feel stagnant, but every time I try to make a move, something simple as writing a resume or hell, even thinking about starting a career I become racked (sp?) with anxiety and self-doubt. I'm anxious as hell, in both spiritual and practical matters and I feel torn between these practical matters and higher things so much so that I tend to neither of them and end up not moving anywhere. My existence just feels sort of vague, maybe verging on pointless. Certainly self-absorbed, which makes me feel icky.

 

Additionally I'm anxious over my health right now. I don't know if I'm just being a hypochondriac or if perhaps there are legitimate physiological concerns but I don't have a doctor right now so I guess I'll just wait and see.

 

If anyone could spare a prayer, it would be much appreciated.

 

-Kristen