Panic Moments

[Mickey's_Girl]

So, you're rolling along, reading, praying, meditating on the Lord, asking for wisdom and guidance. Maybe even taking it a step further: going to Mass or praying the Rosary. All of a sudden you have one of those "WHAT AM I DOING?!" moments.

It could be "Have I been in dreamland for the past X months with this Catholicism thing?" or it could be "What if this is just a temporary interest, and I commit myself, and then realize I've made a mistake?" or any number of things (I just used the two I've had most recently).

Share. Please. Thanks. :wub:

MG

[homeschoolmom]

hehe... it would take way too much time to share all of these moments.

The strongest moment like this was at Easter Vigil. A few days prior, I had had an email "argument" with one of my very best friends. We never argue about anything. But we got into it over the "big C" (as HSDad and I refer to it)-- Catholicism. This happened like Tuesday of Holy Week. The argument lasted into the next day and then she went out of town for Easter. So, it wasn't resolved before Easter Vigil.... So, I'm sitting there thinking... "I have no one's blessing... NO ONE is excited for me... they all think I'm nuts. Maybe I am. What am I doing here?" It was only a fleeting moment, but it was there none the less. It was one of the loneliest days of my life.

To be honest, I still get that feeling when I see people who appear to have such strong devotions to the saints and Mary (don't freak out, I'm just being honest), so that it appears that the devotion is misplaced. Sometimes, even now (although it's less and less as time goes on) I wonder what have we gotten ourselves into. So many things are so, so, soooo right, though, that I just have to figure out what to do with the rest (mentally)...

[cmotherofpirl]

I still have these moments,
so did all the Saints.

I get them at 2 AM

[PedroX]

MG,

I'm slightly neurotic, as you know, so I had panic moments all the time. Until I left my church and started going to mass exclusively during RCIA. Then the hunger for the Eucharist and full communion with the Church Christ created just grew and grew. Once I made the journey irreversible I knew. Just knew.

peace...

[crusader1234]

I'm having a panic moment right now - I'm getting tired of all this right wing propaganda being eaten up before my eyes and forced on me like it's ex Cathedra.

[cmotherofpirl]

You wanna explain?

[crusader1234]

Well, theres a kid at school who called me a worthless hippy that means nothing to society (hes an insecure, racist, republican/conservatve) and that made me mad. then i came on here, and it seems like half of the people here (most of us younger creepy alien types) are left wings and the rest are hardcore right wings. right now it seems like the right wingers are ignoring every issue other than abortion. also, theres an entire thread on why socialists cant be catholics - and this basically means i cant be catholic because i am as serious about helping out others in this world as i am about getting myself into heaven. i'm also VERY tired of having people treat non ex-cathedra articles as rock solid evidence that i am wrong

[Sojourner]

MG, yes, I had panic moments at various points, mainly when it came to working through leaving my former church community and the safety/security you find in that environment. There were some very lonely points along the way, and I still have moments where the loneliness strikes me hard in the gut.

I was sustained through the panicky points by being able to look back on the points in which I [i]knew[/i] this was the path I was called to walk. It gave me a new understanding of what it means to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus.

[Brother Adam]

Oh yes, I have them too. Those *But how do you KNOW* moments. We haven't yet experienced the full force of our church yet who we told but haven't heard anything back from yet. So we'll see how that goes :-P

[theculturewarrior]

[quote]Well, theres a kid at school who called me a worthless hippy that means nothing to society (hes an insecure, racist, republican/conservatve) and that made me mad. then i came on here, and it seems like half of the people here (most of us younger creepy alien types) are left wings and the rest are hardcore right wings. right now it seems like the right wingers are ignoring every issue other than abortion. also, theres an entire thread on why socialists cant be catholics - and this basically means i cant be catholic because i am as serious about helping out others in this world as i am about getting myself into heaven. i'm also VERY tired of having people treat non ex-cathedra articles as rock solid evidence that i am wrong [/quote]

If it makes you feel any better, I for one am neither right nor left...just Catholic. Now, back to the task at hand...

There were times when I realized, "okay...there's no going back...you can no longer pick and choose your denomination...you can no longer pick and choose your ideologies." The underlying fear was that now, everything has to come from God, but really, that's nothing to be afraid of. I would like to say that I haven't looked back, but I have. I have and I have realized that I'm where God wants me.

[akamarymag]

my most intense panic moment probaly took place when my borther came back home on vacation for the army. My brother really wanted be to go to church with himn when he went back. btut hte thing is i promised myslef that i wouldnt go back to my protestant church until i was catholic. My brother never liked the catholic church. ( he's what i call a hardcore lutheran). we'd always end up getting in long conversations about the church and why the reformation happend. then he'd get into saying stuff like i was to young or its just a phase to be attached to a diffrent church. the things he said got me thinking sometimes.