Aloysius Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 (edited) [color=orange]Naaaaaaaaaaants ingonyama.... bagithi baba... sithi uhhmm ingonyama[/color] I have decided that I love the movie, The Lion King. It sounds pretty dumb, but when I watched it I got a whole new insight into my life. It's kind of wierd, but now I am really psyched up about learning and growing and going somewhere in my life. Also, I found a change in my transcendent deeper level of desire that leads to relationships. The way I see it, and I have been thinking about this and reflecting on this for a long time now, we have two main levels of desire and attraction that are responsible for romantic connections. Ever since i can even remember, both of these levels of mine have been quite disordered and out of sync with the way the world works. The one level of desire is our desire for what type of relationsip we want, for love and affection and the overal impersonal transendent desire for a relationship. The other is the personal physical and emotional attraction, which usually works to bring about the fulfillment of the transendent desire of a relationship and of love. Anyway, as I was watching the Lion King I recognized an answer to my prayers. See, both of those levels before has always desired a same sex partnership relationship. But seeing as how I was completely unclouded by attractions watching the two cartoon lions in their budding romance, I could definitely "feel the love tonight." I believe an answer to a ferverent long prayer I made on Holy Thursday this year may have been answered. I prayed that if it be possible these attractions that rebel so much against the natural order be lifted from me. So, watching Simba and Nala with the song "Can You Feel the Love Tonight?" I realized that my transcendent desire for what type of relationship i wanted had been shifted within me without me even realizing it. This deep desire of relationships which had always been in sync with my attractions has been completely shifted. The type of relationship I want is the type Simba and Nala had, a heterosexual beautiful natural order of union. "The world for once in perfect harmony with all it's living things" as the song goes. That's the one line that really got me. Anyway, my physical attraction is still attracted to the same sex, but I believe that it is finally just a physical thing and no longer poisons my soul from within. Now the poison to the soul comes from without, because my soul desires an ordered relationship, and any offense against that is simply of the flesh. Same Sex Attraction in most people is not simply a desire of the flesh, but a poison of the soul from the very inside depths of it. People are not simply attracted to the same sex by their senses and their hormones, but they are completely focused and disordered in their soul to be attracted to the same sex. By God's grace and power, however, this soul is purified. It does not happen by absolution, but by indulgence. This experience has completely clued me in to a deeper understanding of the nature of the difference between forgiveness and healing, absolution and indulgence. I believe my soul has been healed, but this just opens me up to a bigger war of the Spirit verses the Flesh. My mind has almost always been on the side of the God-created natural order of things, composing of simply my intellect. It's been outnumbered, but since it was on God's side it was prevailing over my emotions and my poisoned soul. And now, my soul seems to have had a cleansing experience. I do not know if it started after my ferverent prayers on Holy Thursday, or when I first told a close friend of mine about this in December, or maybe when I first started learning about the fact that I don't have to follow this in-depth attribute of myself nor did I have to live in unhealthy denial through the testimony of Hyperdulia Again and Good Friday (may God help and heal them both) when I first joined PhatMass. Regardless of when it started, I never realized it until I watched The Lion King. God works in mysterious ways, so why can't He work in cartoon ways? Anyway, not only has it given me insight to what God has done to me and for me, it made me decide to prepare myself to do things well and face responsibilities. I have decided to learn as much as I can learn, read as much as I can read, run and work out as much as I can, and live a life of complexity in simplicity. That may or may not make sense, but it's quite invigorating. And this is why I have decided I love the movie: The Lion King. Edited June 5, 2004 by Aloysius Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VeraMaria Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 (edited) split into paragraphs for easier digestion [quote] I have decided that I love the movie, The Lion King. It sounds pretty dumb, but when I watched it I got a whole new insight into my life. It's kind of wierd, but now I am really psyched up about learning and growing and going somewhere in my life. Also, I found a change in my transcendent deeper level of desire that leads to relationships. The way I see it, and I have been thinking about this and reflecting on this for a long time now, we have two main levels of desire and attraction that are responsible for romantic connections. Ever since i can even remember, both of these levels of mine have been quite disordered and out of sync with the way the world works. The one level of desire is our desire for what type of relationsip we want, for love and affection and the overal impersonal transendent desire for a relationship. The other is the personal physical and emotional attraction, which usually works to bring about the fulfillment of the transendent desire of a relationship and of love. Anyway, as I was watching the Lion King I recognized an answer to my prayers. See, both of those levels before has always desired a same sex partnership relationship. But seeing as how I was completely unclouded by attractions watching the two cartoon lions in their budding romance, I could definitely "feel the love tonight." I believe an answer to a ferverent long prayer I made on Holy Thursday this year may have been answered. I prayed that if it be possible these attractions that rebel so much against the natural order be lifted from me. So, watching Simba and Nala with the song "Can You Feel the Love Tonight?" I realized that my transcendent desire for what type of relationship i wanted had been shifted within me without me even realizing it. This deep desire of relationships which had always been in sync with my attractions has been completely shifted. The type of relationship I want is the type Simba and Nala had, a heterosexual beautiful natural order of union. "The world for once in perfect harmony with all it's living things" as the song goes. That's the one line that really got me. Anyway, my physical attraction is still attracted to the same sex, but I believe that it is finally just a physical thing and no longer poisons my soul from within. Now the poison to the soul comes from without, because my soul desires an ordered relationship, and any offense against that is simply of the flesh. Same Sex Attraction in most people is not simply a desire of the flesh, but a poison of the soul from the very inside depths of it. People are not simply attracted to the same sex by their senses and their hormones, but they are completely focused and disordered in their soul to be attracted to the same sex. By God's grace and power, however, this soul is purified. It does not happen by absolution, but by indulgence. This experience has completely clued me in to a deeper understanding of the nature of the difference between forgiveness and healing, absolution and indulgence. I believe my soul has been healed, but this just opens me up to a bigger war of the Spirit verses the Flesh. My mind has almost always been on the side of the God-created natural order of things, composing of simply my intellect. It's been outnumbered, but since it was on God's side it was prevailing over my emotions and my poisoned soul. And now, my soul seems to have had a cleansing experience. I do not know if it started after my ferverent prayers on Holy Thursday, or when I first told a close friend of mine about this in December, or maybe when I first started learning about the fact that I don't have to follow this in-depth attribute of myself nor did I have to live in unhealthy denial through the testimony of Hyperdulia Again and Good Friday (may God help and heal them both) when I first joined PhatMass. Regardless of when it started, I never realized it until I watched The Lion King. G od works in mysterious ways, so why can't He work in cartoon ways? Anyway, not only has it given me insight to what God has done to me and for me, it made me decide to prepare myself to do things well and face responsibilities. I have decided to learn as much as I can learn, read as much as I can read, run and work out as much as I can, and live a life of complexity in simplicity. That may or may not make sense, but it's quite invigorating. And this is why I have decided I love the movie: The Lion King.[/quote] Edited June 5, 2004 by VeraMaria Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aloysius Posted June 5, 2004 Author Share Posted June 5, 2004 (edited) how can G be in a different paragraph than od? Are you trying to break up the Trinity? i should've put paragraphs, okay fine, but at least don't seperate words between em! [quote][color=orange]Naaaaaaaaaaants ingonyama.... bagithi baba... sithi uhhmm ingonyama[/color] [color=red]I have decided that I love the movie, The Lion King. It sounds pretty dumb, but when I watched it I got a whole new insight into my life. It's kind of wierd, but now I am really psyched up about learning and growing and going somewhere in my life. Also, I found a change in my transcendent deeper level of desire that leads to relationships. The way I see it, and I have been thinking about this and reflecting on this for a long time now, we have two main levels of desire and attraction that are responsible for romantic connections. Ever since i can even remember, both of these levels of mine have been quite disordered and out of sync with the way the world works. The one level of desire is our desire for what type of relationsip we want, for love and affection and the overal impersonal transendent desire for a relationship. The other is the personal physical and emotional attraction, which usually works to bring about the fulfillment of the transendent desire of a relationship and of love. Anyway, as I was watching the Lion King I recognized an answer to my prayers. See, both of those levels before has always desired a same sex partnership relationship. But seeing as how I was completely unclouded by attractions watching the two cartoon lions in their budding romance, I could definitely "feel the love tonight." I believe an answer to a ferverent long prayer I made on Holy Thursday this year may have been answered. I prayed that if it be possible these attractions that rebel so much against the natural order be lifted from me. So, watching Simba and Nala with the song "Can You Feel the Love Tonight?" I realized that my transcendent desire for what type of relationship i wanted had been shifted within me without me even realizing it. This deep desire of relationships which had always been in sync with my attractions has been completely shifted. The type of relationship I want is the type Simba and Nala had, a heterosexual beautiful natural order of union. "The world for once in perfect harmony with all it's living things" as the song goes. That's the one line that really got me. Anyway, my physical attraction is still attracted to the same sex, but I believe that it is finally just a physical thing and no longer poisons my soul from within. Now the poison to the soul comes from without, because my soul desires an ordered relationship, and any offense against that is simply of the flesh. Same Sex Attraction in most people is not simply a desire of the flesh, but a poison of the soul from the very inside depths of it. People are not simply attracted to the same sex by their senses and their hormones, but they are completely focused and disordered in their soul to be attracted to the same sex. By God's grace and power, however, this soul is purified. It does not happen by absolution, but by indulgence. This experience has completely clued me in to a deeper understanding of the nature of the difference between forgiveness and healing, absolution and indulgence. I believe my soul has been healed, but this just opens me up to a bigger war of the Spirit verses the Flesh. My mind has almost always been on the side of the God-created natural order of things, composing of simply my intellect. It's been outnumbered, but since it was on God's side it was prevailing over my emotions and my poisoned soul. And now, my soul seems to have had a cleansing experience. I do not know if it started after my ferverent prayers on Holy Thursday, or when I first told a close friend of mine about this in December, or maybe when I first started learning about the fact that I don't have to follow this in-depth attribute of myself nor did I have to live in unhealthy denial through the testimony of Hyperdulia Again and Good Friday (may God help and heal them both) when I first joined PhatMass. Regardless of when it started, I never realized it until I watched The Lion King. God works in mysterious ways, so why can't He work in cartoon ways? Anyway, not only has it given me insight to what God has done to me and for me, it made me decide to prepare myself to do things well and face responsibilities. I have decided to learn as much as I can learn, read as much as I can read, run and work out as much as I can, and live a life of complexity in simplicity. That may or may not make sense, but it's quite invigorating. And this is why I have decided I love the movie: The Lion King. [/color][/quote] Edited June 5, 2004 by Aloysius Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 Thank you Vera, I think I can read it now. LOL! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VeraMaria Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 [quote name='Aloysius' date='Jun 5 2004, 03:10 PM'] how can G be in a different paragraph than od? Are you trying to break up the Trinity? i should've put paragraphs, okay fine, but at least don't seperate words between em! [/quote] sorry al i tried Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crusader1234 Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 well im glad you wathed this instead of lilo and stitch hahaha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 I liked Loin King. Last I saw it it was in French (harder to follow that way but what the heck, lol) but I do rember thinking something along they lines of "I wish I could have a relationship like that. Only I want to be human still." LOL! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
musturde Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 G-O-D Trinity... That's Geneiouiis Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crusader1234 Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 HAha, funny little typo in Jacob's post... not that hard to find either hahaha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iacobus Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 Whcih one? Loin or rember? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crusader1234 Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 Rember is funny, but "Loin King" sounds soo wrong hahaha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aloysius Posted June 5, 2004 Author Share Posted June 5, 2004 [quote name='musturde' date='Jun 5 2004, 01:46 PM'] G-O-D Trinity... That's Geneiouiis [/quote] lol you never realized that? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aloysius Posted June 5, 2004 Author Share Posted June 5, 2004 well anyway, i still got this thing of the flesh to worry about and the thing of the flesh is gonna try to assasinate the new President of my soul. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
littleflower+JMJ Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 al im proud of you, your a very strong and courageous young man! keep it up for God is always speaking to us in ways that we less expect it. its hard, as any obstacle in our life will be, but God will empower us to win the great victory! God bless you so much Al, you are always in my prayers! +JMJ+ remember..... [b][i][color=blue]"Give yourself fully to God. He will use you to accomplish great things on the condition that you believe much more in His love than in your own weakness."[/color][/i][/b] ~ Blessed Mother Teresa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ilovechrist Posted June 5, 2004 Share Posted June 5, 2004 [quote name='crusader1234' date='Jun 5 2004, 02:15 PM'] well im glad you wathed this instead of lilo and stitch hahaha [/quote] that stuff is CRAZY--i can imitate stitch's voice pretty well though yeah, the Lion King will always be something to remember.. probably was the best quality Disney movie made. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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