My Apologise For Last Night

[Tab'le De'Bah-Rye]

I'm sorry for last night i was drunk but just so you understand my position, i am 35 years old and single which is seemingly abnormal at my age, i am single and don't wan't to be i desire to be wed, i come from a broken family and my mum has some kind of serious depression and has attempted suicide twice, and i am unemployable due to a mental illness from previous marijuana abuse. Really i am trying, and really i don't wan't to drink in excess ever, and really i'm not an alcoholic. And i have been doing well with alcohol until the last 3 weeks i have been drunk twice in that 3 weeks. And i understand everyone has problems and that a problem is a problem no matter what problem it is, maybe not 100% but getting there. So i didn't write this as an excuse i wrote this to say sorry, So i am really, really, really sorry for any words i may have said last night that offended anyone, and please pray for me that i don't become a drunkard and that this isn't a regular event, in general when i get drunk which isn't even once a month i don't come on phatmass out of respect, but i seemed to have lost all respect last night, i'm truely sorry for that. And i don't have the gift of the gab, this is very embarrassing for me writing all this now, so i hope you all accept my apologies and pray for me instead of hate me, not saying any of you do but just in case, i't is true at present i am a lost sheep, but hopefully a sheep all the same, and hopefully i find my way or jesus comes and gets me.

 

Jesus iz LORD.

 

P.s. if you decide to pray for me please just pray that God blesses me in faith,hope and love and if you dare that he sends me a good women whom doesn't drink much or doesn't drink at all, it is ok if she has had a drinking problem previously or is damaged property in anyway, as long as she is a practicing christian catholic and of child bearing years.

[Selah]

Tab, I don't think anyone here wants you to hurt yourself. I'm sorry you are struggling so badly. Yes, praying for you. 

 

Pray to St. Monica. She is a patron saint for those who struggle with alcohol addiction. Talk to a Priest, too. God made you for better things than this. 

[Nihil Obstat]

You sound like you may be an alcoholic, despite your belief to the contrary. Get some help dude. We are praying for you.

[Gabriela]

I don't think anyone hates you, Tab. I certainly don't. I prayed for you as soon as I finished reading your post. I will continue to do so! God bless you! :-)

[Tab'le De'Bah-Rye]

Thankyou for understanding phriends, i feel much better now after reading these responses. Not that i posted the apology for a response  :)

Edited October 27, 2013 by Tab'le De'Bah-Rye

[CrossCuT]

You're awesome Tab don't let anyone convince you otherwise! seems like you're going through a rough patch but remember that there is always a silver lining to our suffering somewhere down the road.

Just keep your head up! You're in my prayers!

[BarbTherese]

Your tops in my book, Tab :)

Prayer

[Anastasia13]

You sound like you may be an alcoholic, despite your belief to the contrary. Get some help dude. We are praying for you.

 

There are times when this seems true. I hope you can get some kind of support to cut back on the drinking. I say this because you are worth it. Hang in there. God has a reason He is allowing this to happen and can use whatever you are going through for something good.

 

Lost sheep that know they are lost are on the way to being found. Better a sheep than a goat.

[Tab'le De'Bah-Rye]

Yeah sheep rule, lol. I really do hope i'm a sheep and not a goat and if i am a goat i pray the Lord to make me into a sheep. :) Thanks again everyone, god bless you all.

[Anastasia13]

Yeah sheep rule, lol. I really do hope i'm a sheep and not a goat and if i am a goat i pray the Lord to make me into a sheep. :) Thanks again everyone, god bless you all.

 

God bless you too. *hugs*

[Semper Catholic]

You sound like youre a 35 year old man child.

[Catherine Therese]

Tab... can I just say how much I LOVE that you so often add "Onward, Christian Souls!" to your posts? I LOVE seeing that zeal, it spurs me on in my own faith.

It was only a week or two ago that someone else was encouraging me because I had posted something that had upset someone and I wished so much that I hadn't, too. Please don't feel like you're the only one who makes that kind of mistake!

Hey, have you heard of a guy called Fr. Emmerich Vogt OP ?? He's an AWESOME priest, he used to give retreats for Mother Teresa's Missionaries of Charity sisters. He grew up in a family that was broken by difficulties with alcohol and his whole approach to spiritual direction has been influenced by the insights of his real-life experience with that. He came to Australia recently to speak and I went to a couple of his talks which were absolutely AMAZING. I bought a series of talks of his called "Detaching with Love" -> I cannot recommend these enough. These are ideal for EVERYONE who seeks self-knowledge and better relationships in the Lord, but the insights they offer for people who struggle with difficult family situations and/or addictions are especially helpful. If you're interested, here's his website:( http://www.12-step-review.org/index.html )

In the meantime - don't beat yourself up, just keep growing :) You are an adopted son of God and He sees the inner depths of your being and loves you with the most profound and forgiving love.

[Guest]

Its all love Tab....No one hates you...I really think you should give up alcohol and stay sober...If I can do it you can....Prayers bro....

[Immanuel]

Prayers from me too, Tab.

[AnneLine]

Hey, Tab,

 

We DO love and care about you.  And want to see you happy.  

 

You don't have to take Josh's advice about sobriety, but you know he is fighting his own battles with alcohol.  He seems to be finding AA to be a very helpful thing on his journey to God and toward sobriety.   And my dad found it truly a God-send for his 30 or so years of sobriety as well....

 

And... as a person who doesn't drink much, but grew up in a family that was two inches deep in the stuff.... I found going to the group for families, Alanon, was really helpful during part of my own growth as well. 

 

Even if you aren't convinced you have a serious problem, you will seldom meet a nicer bunch of people who are all trying to find God and live their lives the best they can, day by day, than at an AA meeting.  Yould even attend an 'open' AA meeting ('open' meaning open to the general public, not just those who have decided they need to admit a dependence on alcohol) to see if you would find it helpful... and I think you would, if only to get an impetus for your own prayer for those who struggle.

 

And I'll second the suggestion about the Fr. Emmerich Vogt, OP tapes -- Fr E is well known in the Western Dominican Province for his ministry, and he is an AAAAAwesome preacher.  I think you'd like them....

 

:heart: praying for you :heart: