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[DiscerningCatholic]

Spiritually, I haven't been feeling like myself for the past month and a half or so, and it's affecting me physically. I spend so much time worrying (especially about my discernment...like I said earlier, "paralysis of analysis") that I can't sleep at night, which is making me tired and grouchy. I haven't felt like praying (I do anyway) or going to adoration (I do anyway), I miss the sisters (I don't say that just like "Yeah, I miss them" but as in I FREAKING MISS THEM :cry: :cry4: ), and I feel like November will never get here. And then I'm worried about the application process...all those doctors visits and questions to answer and the wait to hear back and what if I don't get accepted and even if I do what do I do then because OMCheese new experience stuff to buy clothes to sew leaving parents moving in with people who are still largely strangers to me and what the heck do I do with 120 "big sisters" or will that be like having 120 moms  :idontknow: :wall:

 

#DISCERNMENTANGST

 

And then someone flipped me off when my car stalled in an intersection today, so that made me pretty mad, especially since my dad proceeded to yell at me once I got going again. (But even my dad thinks that that intersection is the most horribly engineered intersection he's ever seen..)