Feeling Scared And Hopeless

[FutureSister2009]

Okay this is the whole story and I apologize that it's lengthy. I've been struggling grade wise since I've started at Desales. This semester in particular has really been a struggle for me. I have this one teacher for two classes who gives horrible lectures, vague notes and expects us to memorize every single detail. His tests in particular are really challenging. Everyone that I've talked to agrees with me and a lot of people are really having a hard time with it. People complain and yet he doesn't change. My advisor says the department is aware of how low the average is in his classes but it's not enough to do anything about it. That doesn't seem fair. He's got more classes next semester. I refuse to put myself through that again. It seems as though he really enjoys seeing us fail. When I asked him for help, all he said was just memorize everything. Memorizing is really hard when it's every single little thing.

 

So now I took one of his finals yesterday. I know I did not do well. And this was the class I was struggling with more. If I somehow get through this class with at least a C-, I'll be thrilled. I have one more final with him on Friday. I need to get through this.

 

What's even worse is that my mom doesn't seem to think that I am actually working hard. I am. She has no idea how hard I've worked. She doesn't care that its him and not me. I know it's wrong to blame the teacher but in this case, everyone is blaming the teacher.

 

At this point, I really don't know what else to do. I am so scared. If it's God's will for me to stay here at Desales, then I really need a miracle. I feel like I have no future. I can't see what my future is supposed to be and that's really worrying me. I feel like I am not meant for college. I'm not smart enough for it.

 

Please pray for me. I really think this is a hopeless case though. :cry: