Lilllabettt Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 remember 6th grade - Mrs.Olzmann's gifted class? I deliberately wrote poems about death and bladder disease just to make her freak out. 'Memries. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gabriela Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 (edited) Let me give you some of my back story, Curiousing. When I was fourteen years old, I couldn't tell you what five times five was. I didn't even know what that meant. I felt a call to the Priesthood in February of 2011, and I started studying. Two years later exactly, all by myself I went from not knowing what five times five is to now knowing how to do algebra, and being a good student that is going to graduate either this year or next year (This year would be two years early, and next year would be one year early). I did that by myself. Nobody told me to, nobody suggested it to me, I just opened up books and did it. I am developing myself into what I want to be: A dedicated husband that will do anything for his wife. Do you think I want to spend tomorrow juggling a job and learning algebra? Heck no. But I'm doing it. Do you think I want to take the SAT's and go to Benedictine for a minimum of four years at $30,000 a year just because? If you do, you don't know a thing about me. I'm doing these things for my wife. If I did them for myself then I simply wouldn't do it. But that's the thing: These things are NOT about me. They are about my wife. I'm building a future for my wife, not for me. It is all about her and God and what God wants for me in my life. To say I'm not enjoying the moment is laughable. I feel more alive and motivated to become an all A student than ever. I have never once wanted to become an all A student until now, and it's because of my future spouse. God has done wonderful things for me, and I have never been more thankful to Him for my life which was unfortunate and full of problems than now. Am I called to become a husband or not? Vocationally, I have discerned with the guidance of a religious Sister that God most likely does not want me to be a Priest or join the religious life. The thought of being a Priest was terrible for me. It caused anxiety and depression, and the thought of going to the seminary for more than a two day trip was a nightmare for me. But the thought of getting married and having children was unreal. I felt happiness, joy, fulfillment, and I felt as if I could do so much more for God that way, which is what our vocations are for, right? So yeah, maybe I am called to be a Priest, anything is possible, after all. But in recent times God has been quite clear with me on what He wants me to do, so I'm doing it. I hope you can respect that. I know what you are saying, Curiousing. The past two years of my life have been so full of 180's and I had no idea I would actually change my mind about things. From twelve to fourteen I wanted to be a Rock star, and from fourteen to sixteen I wanted to be a Priest. With discernment I realized God likely does not want me to be a Priest. Note the word "likely". It's still possible. If I go to sleep tonight and in my dream the clouds part and a booming voice goes "MILES, GO TO THE SEMINARY AND GET ORDAINED!" I would do it. But this is what I think God is calling me to, and I hope you can respect that as well. My motivation used to be becoming a Priest. That was the only reason I started studying. I've discerned God doesn't likely want me to become a Priest. As you can see, I'm obviously not living in an empty unknowable abyss. I have a sense of purpose. If God shows me that he wants me to stay single, than great. But my motivation has always been God's vocation for me. If doing something out of motivation for what God wants is wrong, then I don't want to be right. I think what you fail to see in this history is the rapidity and fanaticalness with which you swung from one extreme to another—as beatitude has already pointed out. That is a personality trait. I used to have it. Trust me: The sooner you acknowledge it and temper it, the better. But then, if you don't, well... you won't be any different from most 16-year-olds. Still, you're talking to a bunch of old fogies in here, so WE see it. And we're just trying to give you the advice we wish we'd had. BTW: That "Miles, I heard you're writing me letters" meme is ROFL-hilarious!!! ;-) Edited February 8, 2013 by curiousing Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
4588686 Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 (edited) remember 6th grade - Mrs.Olzmann's gifted class? I deliberately wrote poems about death and bladder disease just to make her freak out. 'Memries. When I was in 6th grade Olivia, who I did not care for, brought in this interactive model of the human heart for our science class's section on the circulatory system. Arriving home I heard that my cousin had shot a deer earlier that day and was in he process of gutting and cleaning it. I asked him to save the heart. So the next morning when I arrived to school with an icebox I responded proudly to queries about its contents "a heart!" I still remember my teachers wide eyed look of shock. The icing on the cake when when Olivia announced that she was a vegetarian and stormed out of the classroom. :winner: Edited February 8, 2013 by Hasan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhuturePriest Posted February 8, 2013 Author Share Posted February 8, 2013 (edited) I think what you fail to see in this history is the rapidity and fanaticalness with which you swung from one extreme to another—as beatitude has already pointed out. That is a personality trait. I used to have it. Trust me: The sooner you acknowledge it and temper it, the better. But then, if you don't, well... you won't be any different from most 16-year-olds. Still, you're talking to a bunch of old fogies in here, so WE see it. And we're just trying to give you the advice we wish we'd had. BTW: That "Miles, I heard you're writing me letters" meme is ROFL-hilarious!!! ;-) I know I have a tendency to swing. I've always had it and I'm so much better than I used to be. But here's the difference between before when I was certain I was called to be a Priest and now: Before I had never visited the seminary. When I visited the seminary, much to my despair, I realized it wasn't for me. This isn't a mood swing, it's a logical conclusion after having visited the seminary, and after discussing everything with a Sister and trusted friends (All of them being "old fogies" as you call yourselves). I know my future is not certain. The only thing certain is that something will happen. I just don't know what that something is yet. But I do have a good idea from discerning for two years and having a spiritual director that God may truly want me to get married. And I'm happy about that. I want to get married and have a huge family with a lot of daughters. I want to have a loving wife and family that I can go home to every day and help lead to heaven spiritually. But what I want more than anything else is to do God's will, but luckily for me I think this may be it. We'll find out in the future, but there are such things as indications, and I don't think it is fair to ignore them. I'm not the person I used to be where I would change my mind at every shiny object that appeared before me. I've matured a lot (Through the help of you guys, in fact), and the consensus by a lot of trusted, older people is that I can trust my feelings a lot more than I used to be able to since now I use loads more rational thought than I used to. Edited February 8, 2013 by FuturePriest387 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Winchester Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 You should totally take the username "Sadducee". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gabriela Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 You should totally take the username "Sadducee". I'm afraid I don't follow. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Winchester Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 I'm afraid I don't follow.You don't have to. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 TIL that Phatmassers are totally flooping insane. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhuturePriest Posted February 8, 2013 Author Share Posted February 8, 2013 TIL that Phatmassers are totally flooping insane. TIL? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 TIL? Today I Learned Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhuturePriest Posted February 8, 2013 Author Share Posted February 8, 2013 Today I Learned Speak American or go to the border where you belong, commie. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nihil Obstat Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 Speak American or go to the border where you belong, commie. That is quintessentially American. Specifically Reddit culture, which is overwhelmingly white middle class liberal American. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhuturePriest Posted February 8, 2013 Author Share Posted February 8, 2013 That is quintessentially American. Specifically Reddit culture, which is overwhelmingly white middle class liberal American. Liberals aren't American. They are Californian. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Winchester Posted February 8, 2013 Share Posted February 8, 2013 Liberals aren't American. They are Californian.FETUS BE SILENT Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhuturePriest Posted February 8, 2013 Author Share Posted February 8, 2013 FETUS BE SILENT :shutup: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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