Save Me From Myself.

[ContemporaryCaflicCrusader]

I am begging you God.  Save me from my hell.  I want to be a super Catholic.  The past just won't go.  Life sucks I am over it.  All my dreams are the cost.  From all the battles I've lost.  Mocked and judged, sweat and blood.  My dreams are the cost.  But crying won't stop the bleeding.  Cut too deep, I need healing.  Wants and needs, apologies.  Is this as real as it's feeling?  It's falling apart around me and it's not slowing down.  As other Catholics around drown or head for holier ground.  They swarm around like zombies and there aren't enough conversions in my spiritual guns and when I point to the Son I feel like He walks away.  I am not enough.  Help.  Amen.