My Dad Is Sick

[Quietfire]

He has cancer.  Surgery is no longer an option and I had to deliver that news to him myself so it was especially hard because I had to do it over the phone the other night.  We live 1500 miles apart and although I thank God for the internet so that I can make sure he has everything he needs to get by...I cannot be there 24/7 face to face, which is what he wants.  I was with him a few weeks ago and I will be with him again in February but it isnt the same....I hate leaving him.

 

We talk constantly....we're just two chickens cackling LOL.  But it's wonderful to talk to him so much.  I have always worked hard at maintaining a close relationship with my dad no matter what, and Lord knows we've had our issues over the years.

 

So he is dying.  Depending on his body's reaction to the chemo he could live another 2 years but if his body reponds negatively to the chemo, and that is a very real possibility due to previous radiation treatments, then that time will be shortened drastically.

 

I am so proud of him for coming back to the Church after I was received in '06.  He was so worried about that first confession after being away for so long.  I reassured him that God can forgive anything, especially when it's sincere.  He tried for so long to continue to go to Mass until his health started to suffer.

 

Now he is undergoing physical therapy because he became too weak to walk and ended up collapsing about a dozen times in his home before he finally called me asking for help.  We are trying to get his weight up so that his muscles will get stronger but he works so hard and everything he eats is burned off.  He is severly underweight.

 

There is that little girl inside of me that privately prays for her daddy's complete recovery, but I know that is unrealistic.  The cancer will take him sooner or later and my heart is breaking a little bit more each day.

 

So I would pray that he pass with as much dignity as God will allow and that he doesnt suffer too much.  

 

 

He is scared.  So I would also pray that he might have peace......

 

He deserves it.

 

God Bless.