Feeling Bad

[FutureCarmeliteClaire]

My surgery is coming up in 16 days. I'm really apprehensive about it. I contacted my Deacon today about anointing, so hopefully that will work out. I just feel really nervous.

Sometimes I just feel bad and anxious with no good reason. If someone asked me what was wrong, I'd say I didn't know. I used to struggle with this before. And now it's more social, where I feel like I'm annoying people and people don't like me, etc etc. I can truly say I don't know where it comes from.

I lost two of my closest friends in the past three weeks. So really, lately, I've just been having a hard time. Sometimes I feel like I need to vent, but I wouldn't know what to say if I tried. I feel like I've exhausted my friends trying to help me. I don't want to unload on other people because I don't want to start that again. But maybe I haven't exhausted my friends, I don't know. I just don't know, and I don't feel well.

I feel terrible about myself. I mean TERRIBLE. Physically and socially.

I guess I just need more prayers. I hate posting in here all the time, I'm sorry, guys.

I pray for you all every day.
FCC