A Load Of Stuff

[FutureCarmeliteClaire]

So, I am like 2 weeks behind on school because of the hospital scare plus vacation the week before. Not to mention in November when I have my surgery, I won't be able to do a ton of work. I feel crappy enough without being cut open and having a rib removed and a muscle cut, not looking forward to recovery... I do an online writing class, and we're contemplating taking a break from it for one session and resuming after recovery. I hate that. I'm worried I won't finish until like June. My mom is calling the advisors for our curriculum tomorrow to see what we can pair down on or alter because of my situation. I've had a great start to highschool so far! *sarcasm*

Today is just one of those, leave me alone, don't touch me, kinds of days. I feel bad about it too, because today is my little brothers birthday.

Plus, I had kind of a scare today. My pain is worse than it has been in several weeks, and now that we know I have the clot, it just makes things scarier.

I'm sick of giving myself shots. It feels horrible. It makes me feel guilty, and I don't even know why because I know these are helping me! Ugh, I don't get it.

I still hold to what I've said about this truly bringing good in my life, but today's just one of those, "Really, God?" days. I know everything will be fine, it's just stressful.

Prayers appreciated. I'll offer my next shot (7:30pm CST) for all the Phatmassers and their intentions.
FCC