Sick Of Being Sick

[FutureCarmeliteClaire]

Okay, please pray for me.

I am downright tired of waking up every morning and going to bed every night with a headache. I have them all day long, every day. Some days they're worse than others. I'm tired of crying every day because I'm scared or hurting. I'm tired of my entire body hurting all day every day. I'm tired of having other people do things for me. I'm tired of having to take medicines to function like a SOMEWHAT normal human being. I'm trusting God will take care of me and be with me always, and I know life isn't meant to be smooth sailing, I just honestly never expected this. I don't think anyone does.

I have anxiety issues along with obsessive compulsive like behaviors, and because of this illness I've let my coping mechanisms go. So now I remember how I felt several years ago when I struggled with these issues greatly. I feel like a slave to my own mind.

I've also had to let my discernment go because of my priorities right now. This whole experience has caused me to re-think my look at discernment and my future. In some ways it's a good thing, I suppose. I've really learned that you really never know what's coming around the corner.

I posted earlier this week saying that I feel more at peace. And I do, don't get me wrong, I'm not as depressed as I was. But it still completely and totally stinks. And sometimes it just hits me really hard. :/

Prayers appreciated. My endocrinologist appointment is tomorrow.
FCC