I Need Help

[MissyP89]

My heart is so many different degrees of messed up it's not even funny.

The short, sterilized version is that I had a very difficult conversion about 7 years ago. The events of that time led me to a very broken idea of who God is and how He treats us.

My family and transportation situations make it nearly impossible for me to seek spiritual direction, and because of this, all these backwards ideas have been left to stew.

It's grown like cancer since then, and I'm now at the point where it's impossible for me to go to God in prayer without having a complete meltdown. It [i]hurts.[/i]

Life with Jesus is supposed to be about love and joy. For me, it's never been like that.

I don't know where to go from here or how to fix this.

Please pray hard for me, pham.