Brother Adam Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Well for almost 2 years now I've successfully fought off depression but it's really starting to come back. Despite having the most beautiful, wonderful, loving (and understanding) wife, I've been stuck working horrible temp jobs (my next one starts tomorrow 3-2:15p in a factory), having no insurance, not being sure about school, or knowing if I'll even be able to go back... Then having the stress of realizing I need to reconcile to the Church and realizing how difficult and stressful it will be to tell our baptist friends and family. And while I do know alot about theology, if you put me up against someone with any seminary training, I'd probably get knocked flat on my back. I'm just feel pretty useless and like life isn't going anywhere. Can I just crawl into bed and never come out? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CreepyCrawler Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 as long as you're praying in your bed i will pray for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kilroy the Ninja Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 It's hard but no, you cannot crawl in there and never come out! (Maybe just for a short nap...) Trust in God (as I'm sure you do). Easy to say, hard to do, but you can do it. Try not to focus on the unpleasant stuff... but I can totally empathize with you.. Hang in there and God Bless! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lil Red Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 No, you can't crawl into bed and never come out! Don't give in to despair, Brother Adam. Many times in our life we are beaten down by circumstances or people, and we must rise above and conquer. I, too, have gone through many horrible things in my life, and what keeps me going is the fact that I may be the Gospel that someone is reading today. I may be the something that gives another hope. After all, if we did not have moments of sadness in our lives, would we really know what true happiness is? God bless. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cmotherofpirl Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Its frustrating not knowing what will happen next in life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mrs. Bro. Adam Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Adam: I love you more than words will ever be able to express. Not only do I love you, but I love your ambition, and everything that you've set out to do so far, you've done it... What you've done is very admirable, and no matter what harsh times comes, I'll love you even more. Got has brought us together, nothing's going to tear us apart, or make me love you even less. If you want to crawl into bed and never come out, know that I'll be there waiting for you to come out, and will be there when you decide to come out! I love you more each day than the day before! My love, my husband, my life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dUSt Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 I don't know whether to cry or to barf. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cmotherofpirl Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Cry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mrs. Bro. Adam Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 [quote name='dUSt' date='May 17 2004, 03:16 PM'] I don't know whether to cry or to barf. [/quote] Oh.. I don't know...ya could be nice Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
homeschoolmom Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Oh, Adam... I can so relate. Not the job part so much, but with the wanting to crawl in bed and never come out... just know that your Phatmass pham is here to support you. We aren't just cyberbots... but real people who really do care about you and are really praying for you... --L Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CreepyCrawler Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 i got this poem in the mail today. i thought i'd share. that's all. ********************** Life is to live and life is to give and talents are to use for good if you choose. Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be strong. Do not pray for task equal to your power. Pray for powers equal to your tasks- then the doing of your work shall be no miracle but you shall be a miracle. Every day you shall wonder at yourself... at the richness of life which has come to you by the grace of God. But everyone needs someone- knowing that somewhere someone is thinking of you. poem prayer used by Venerable Fr. Solanus. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mulls Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 [quote name='Brother Adam' date='May 17 2004, 01:51 PM'] And while I do know alot about theology, if you put me up against someone with any seminary training, I'd probably get knocked flat on my back. [/quote] yeah....you're a terrible Christian because you might not win every single debate you ever get involved in. see how stupid that sounds? if God counted against me all the times i've screwed up arguments and debates and theology, he'd have put me so far into hell by now that i would probably come out the other side in China or something, all burned up and not handsome anymore. but we both know that's not the way it works. let all the smarty-pants seminarians win all the debates they want. i think God cares more about your life, your love, and your willingness to imitate Christ than your knowledge of Reformed-Pre-Ana-Baptist-Anglo-Catholic-Reverse-Tribulation-Messianic-Covenant-Apostolic-off the-backboard-and-through-the-legs-360-windmill-with-vanilla-fudge-and-a-cherry-on-top-and-a-bag-of-doritos-for-yo-mama-Theology. knowledge is power, but love is what counts. you've got the love of the Lord on you, in you, and all around you, and as long as you keep laboring for Him, He will see you through. David was a meek shepherd boy, Jeremiah was the weakest in his family, Moses was a stuttering scaredy-cat. But God did big things with them all. God makes us most powerful when we're at our weakest. You're blessed, and you know it. Get the swagger back, let the world know who you're reppin' for, who you're stuggling for, and the rest is gravy. peace. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theculturewarrior Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 Depression is no laughing matter. It is a cross, and often it seems like no one can understand. I highly recommend placing yourself under the patronage of the saints. St. Dymphna has been a powerful saint in my life. She is the patroness of the mentally ill, and those afflicted with nervous disorders. Another good patron saint is St. Joseph the Worker. I have some personal testimonies regarding St. Dymphna, if you're interested, PM me. As far as success, failure, etc...that seems easily remedied, as I can see that you are very intelligent. Let me tell you, I am a high school drop-out...the one nobody expected to make it. I currently have a cumulative GPA of 3.68, and it is getting better. I am looking at going to Law School upon graduating in Dec. I know you can do it too...but don't be afraid of settling for community college. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brother Adam Posted May 17, 2004 Author Share Posted May 17, 2004 That Pre-ana-baptist thing was pretty funny though. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ash Wednesday Posted May 17, 2004 Share Posted May 17, 2004 [quote]I don't know whether to cry or to barf.[/quote] You never know what to expect from the Icy Hot Stunta of Phatmass. I vote "cry", too. I hope I have a marriage like that. Brother Adam, I have, like 10,000 hugs for you. And then some, because I manage depression, too. It almost leveled me in college. It has never come back to that degree, but sometimes its ghost still visits me for a spell from time to time. It's a miracle I've been able to survive this year after my best friend, my mother, died in November. The other night I cried so hard, I missed her so much, and I just thought of being completely enveloped by the embrace of our Blessed Mother, and it gave me peace of mind. So just come to God and our family in heaven as a child, and just be still and know that He IS! Personally, I don't think depression is always "cured"... it is "managed." It sounds to me like you've got a lot of stress going on, and that will burn up the seratonin like wildfire. Try not to think of your whole year, or LIFE ahead of you. Think of the day ahead of you. Or break it down to hours. Minutes. Another thing that silently aggrivates depression without us suspecting, is the thyroid. If you're feeling really sluggish and crappy, you might want to get that checked if you can. If you need to simplify in your life to feel in control, do it. Take time to relax, take a breather. Get exercise, plenty of rest, and eat healthy food. Make sure you are taking care of yourself. God bless you plenty, my friend. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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