Future

[beatitude]

I've applied to do a PhD. There are two possible funding sources for the project. I made the shortlist for one, but was ultimately unsuccessful. Today I learned that I'm a top-ranked candidate for the other, and studentships will be allocated next week.

This is a very exciting PhD project and I want to do it badly, but I want to do the will of God more. Please pray for the best outcome, and that I will accept it with peace and joy, no matter what it is.

Please also pray that I am able to deal well with the anxiety and uncertainty. Because of my disability I have always had a tough struggle to find paid employment of any sort. It's not that I can't work or I don't want to work, it's just that employers often have a very fixed idea of what my disability means, and it's hard to find someone who will give me a chance. When I don't disclose my disability on application forms, I get interviews; and when I do disclose it, the number of interviews just plummets. At the interview it becomes obvious that I'm disabled, so it's a catch-22. If I don't get the PhD I will have to start applying for jobs all over again, and I'm dreading it. Please pray that I will trust God to look after me.