My Memere And Stuff

[ContemporaryCaflicCrusader]

Memere told us she would rather be dead than be here when she saw us on Wednesday. She's in isolation at a nursing home. She has an intestinal and lung infection that she's been taking antibiotics for for a while. She has a lot to live for. May 7th is her 57th wedding anniversary, May 26th my sister is the 2nd of her 5 grandchildren and gets a catholic marriage to a catholic man who willl treat her like a catholic princess, and in November she will become a great grandmother when my cousin has her first kid after all those years of trying has finally worked. On a bit of a different note. I need the next phase of my life to begin. To not have a new job by the time fall rolls around would be a large failure. College is not something I'm going to be doing either, but I need to move on. I also have concerns about my sisters wedding. I have a hard time letting loose. I imagine I will be to socially stiff and someone'll try to loosen me up and then I'll fall apart. I'm in the wedding party they can't afford for me to sit in the car listening to my iPod crying during the wedding like the last wedding I went to and no offense but that person is millions of miles emtionally not as close to me as my sister. My dad has stated he would rather watch the Avengers movie than be at this wedding, so we need lots of help and for whatever reason I need lots more healing. Memere too.