My Mom

[CatherineM]

My almost 90 year old mother fell and hit her head. She's going to have an MRI in a few days. It's as if she came down with instant dementia when it happened. She's survived Scarlet Fever, having a kidney removed in 1939, a heart attack, a stroke, and 8 bouts of cancer, losing a breast, a lung, and lots of skin. She's buried 3 husbands, both her younger sisters, three daughters in law, a niece, and three grandchildren. I don't have enough fingers and toes to count all her grandkids and great-grandkids, so I know she has had a full life, but I haven't had a good relationship with her since my father died, and haven't seen her in 7 years.

I know in my heart that she probably doesn't have lots of time left, and I have a history of having grief issues. After my dad died I slept on a beach in Mexico for two weeks and no one even knew I had left town. I guess I'm worried about how hard it is going to hit me when she does pass. I won't be able to attend the funeral since I'm still not allowed to fly. I'm not sure I could handle a funeral anyway.

I guess I'm asking for prayers for a gentle passage for my mom when it is time for her to go, and that I don't fall apart or fall into a depression when it does happen.