At The End Of My Rope

[FutureSister2009]

That's really all. I can't get through this anymore. I feel like I'm not going to make it. I still question why I ever came here. I was forced to come here and I knew it was a bad idea. I am trying to figure out what lesson God is trying to teach me from this and I'm not getting anything. It's so frustrating. I would like to get through this with some kind of miracle so I can enjoy my favorite time of the year.