cmaD2006 Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 Hi Phamily: I go on retreat in 8 days. I am sooooooo noooooootttttt rrrrrreeeeeeaaaaaddddddyyyyy. As some of you may have read, an aunt of mine passed away last Tuesday. I was present when she passed, along with about 14 other people. I am glad that I was present -- I was able to pray part of the chaplet the entire time from when she was taken off of life support until she passed. However it has completely and utterly thrown me for a loop. I don't know 100% why -- but I suspect that her death has put me back into my own mom's death. Besides -- no one from Puerto Rico came to see my aunt or to her funeral, and it has served to further divide the family. I long to see my mom's side of the family reunited, as it once was. But starting with my mom's death, and followed by another aunt and this aunt, the family has further and futher divided. The rift is large now. I also need to someday travel back to PR, to have the gravesite blessed by a priest. I was supposed to be focusing on my vocation and what God is asking from me. But right now it is really tough. My s.d. mentioned that it seems as though a number of things have been coming in the way to distract me from what I should focus on. He's right. This is the second distraction in less than a month since I made a vocation related decision. Well maybe I need to just realize that the retreat will probably be a powerful one ... since the last time I was thrown into this much of a loop right before going on retreat, the retreat turned out to be one of the most powerful and life changing retreats that I had ever had. It was a love-fest. Thanks for the "listening" and of course I ask for your prayers, Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AccountDeleted Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 Prayers for both your grief and rou discernment... and I will also throw in 'for your retreat' as well! It sounds as if you are going through a hard time. The evil one has been active in disturbing quite a few phatmassers who are discerning right now (including me recently), so just hang in there and may your retreat be everything you need! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaPetiteSoeur Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 (edited) prayers for you! Edited October 24, 2011 by LaPetiteSoeur Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
brandelynmarie Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 We love you cmaria! Prayers & more prayers that you may have His Peace as you follow Him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aya Sophia Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 Prayers for you during this time. You will probably cry a lot during your retreat - let the tears flow. The timing of these things is not an accident but God's providence - all is according to His loving will for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Strictlyinkblot Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 I will say the Divine Mercy chaplet for your aunt and a rosary for you. Be kind to yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HopefulBride Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 Definitely prayers Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marigold Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 I will pray for you. Perhaps this is what God is asking from you right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cmaD2006 Posted October 24, 2011 Author Share Posted October 24, 2011 Thanks for the prayers everyone ... nunsense I completely agree with what you said. I suspect it is you-know-who trying to distract. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissyP89 Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 We are all stretching and growing -- of course, you and I in very different ways -- but the fact remains that we're each doing the will of God and that is NOT going to go over well with hell. Press on. Your aunt is with Him now, and you know that. Give yourself lots of time to grieve. Hugs, C. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cmaD2006 Posted October 24, 2011 Author Share Posted October 24, 2011 [quote name='MissyP89' timestamp='1319495231' post='2326472'] We are all stretching and growing -- of course, you and I in very different ways -- but the fact remains that we're each doing the will of God and that is NOT going to go over well with hell. Press on. Your aunt is with Him now, and you know that. Give yourself lots of time to grieve. Hugs, C. [/quote] I guess my surprise is the level of grief? We weren't very very close. Which is why to some degree I think its a distraction. I'm quite tempted to cancel the retreat (no ... I won't do it, but geez I so want to). Yet I know its really important that I do go on retreat, since it will refocus me vocation wise. ugh. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 prayers- turn towards Him in your grief and your vocation concerns. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissyP89 Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 Don't run from Him. There's too much good in store for you... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
brandelynmarie Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 [quote name='MissyP89' timestamp='1319495231' post='2326472'] We are all stretching and growing -- of course, you and I in very different ways -- but the fact remains that we're each doing the will of God and that is NOT going to go over well with hell. Press on. Your aunt is with Him now, and you know that. Give yourself lots of time to grieve. Hugs, C. [/quote] I'm out of props Missy, but yeah...props! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maximilianus Posted October 24, 2011 Share Posted October 24, 2011 (edited) No dejes que el dolor te descarrilará de tu camino. Todo saldrá bien, tu verás. Edited October 24, 2011 by Maximilianus Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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