Struggling

[LinaSt.Cecilia2772]

Im just so confused right now. I keep praying and hoping that everything will fall into place soon, but I have a hard time actually believing what im praying. Im so worried about everything this up coming school year, how I'm going to handle school, band, swimming, SAT/ACT stuff, my job, everything I'm involved in at church, and currently my family. My aunt who has cancer is living with us now and its so hard to take care of her and other family members. It hurts so much to see her in pain all the time. Sometimes I dont even feel like a teenager with all the responsibilities I have on my shoulders this year. Whats really bad is that I feel myself drifting away from Jesus, and I dont try and want to do anything about it. I dont want that to happen, but its happening. I need strength and guidance more than anything. I have so many decisions I need to make, and I dont even know where to start. Everything seems like it's falling apart and I dont know what to do about it. Im usually able to handle things and keep composure, but I need some help and guidance. Thank you Phatmass for being a place to reach out. It means the world to me to know there are many people that are praying. Thanks again.