TeresaBenedicta Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 I didn’t get the job. Heh, a bit of a let down, no? Well. There’s a huge story to it. I can shorten it into some interesting quick statements. Like, the Archbishop was called to help make the decision. Or like, I lost the position to a non-Catholic. I had a great interview on Friday. Lots of waiting afterwards. Finally, around 6PM (I was supposed to know by 3PM that afternoon), the business manager called me back up to the Church. He told me that the entire hiring team, save the pastor, was 100% for hiring me. That the problem was with the other candidate… Basically this other guy is an Anglican priest (not converting, btw). He has a kid, and his wife is pregnant with their second child. Unfortunately it’s a really difficult pregnancy and the child is going to have major complications immediately after birth. And the wife just developed some complications. And they need health insurance. Badly. The call to the Archbishop was to see whether there was any policy against hiring an Anglican for a DRE position… and apparently there’s not. So, the pastor gave the other guy the job. It's disappointing, to say the least... although not because of the job. It was strange... just after my interview, I went into the chapel to make a holy hour, and all of the sudden I was super unsure about the job. And at that point I had just had an amesome second interview. All I could do was give it all to Jesus and say 'I don't know- You deal with it all because I just don't know what is best'. I still don't know what is best. But I was devastated after finding out... again, not because of the job, but because it meant that I would likely not be moving in with the sisters. I don't remember the last time that I've felt this... I don't know. I've cried and cried. My heart just aches [i]so much[/i]. And everything in me is repulsed by being back home and going to work again. And I'm just a mess. It hurts so much. I mean, I'm okay. I'm certainly not questioning God or anything like that. In fact, yesterday at Mass, it was beautiful... we sang "O God Beyond All Praising" and I was able to sing it with my whole heart... yes, I can praise God through all of this. I know and trust that He is working good through all of this. And I certainly can't be angry or upset about them giving the job to the other candidate, despite his not being Catholic (the archbishop ok'ed it... I mean, it doesn't make sense to me, but I trust the archbishop). And I can certainly see many ways that God can draw good out of the whole thing- for the other candidate, for that parish, for me... But I re-realized through all of this how strong my desire is to enter and how much it hurts not being able to do so yet. And I don't know what it is I'm supposed to do from here... The immediate question is... do I quit my job anyways, move in with the sisters, and then try to find a job out there? Or do I stay here and continue to work? And there's a lot I just don't know concerning everything in that. So I'm going to talk to Mother and with my spiritual director and see what happens... I could use some extra prayers, though. I just want to love Jesus. I just want to do His will. I have a heavy heart right now. But I want to embrace His will whatever it is, even if it is with a heavy heart. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 TB- you have been in my prayers and will continue to be. I know this is hard, but as you said (and know), trusting in His plan. I'm sure Mother will help you decide what to do about moving. You are such an inspiration to us on PM. [quote name='TeresaBenedicta' timestamp='1310397345' post='2265729'] The call to the Archbishop was to see whether there was any policy against hiring an Anglican for a DRE position… and apparently there's not. [/quote] I mean, I understand why they would want to help the guy out. But shouldn't our children be learning about the Catholic faith- from a Catholic????? Hmmm... well, prayers for their family and the parish, too! More later, but right now I'm heading to Mass. Will remember you in a special way!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
faithcecelia Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 i am so sorry to hear this, and it must be very hard for you. I would try to take comfort, however, from the fact that so much thought was put into the decision, and I'm sure prayer too. Try to have a little bit of quiet now and ask God where next (which I'm sure you do!), talk to suor sisters too and see what the say. It will work for the best I'm sure, however hard that feels now xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HopefulBride Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 TB, Prayers for you as you discern what to do regarding your move with the sisters (and possibly job hunting again) I get the aching about not being able to enter soon. I will pray that the Lord continues to sustain you and guard your vocation. Regarding the other guy. I don't know if I personally agree with him getting the job (one he isn't catholic) and two what Lisa said. It sounds like the reason behind it was more his needs rather than the needs of the children of the parish and that bothers me a bit (but that is neither here nor there) I am sure the Lord will use him as a beautiful instrument for wonderful things in that parish. I will keep him and the parish in my prayers. Today at mass when I receive Jesus I will offer it for you and all those who are unable to enter due to other pressing obligations. Blessings, HB Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Santa Cruz Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 Oh dear! I am sorry about that. I know you know that God's hand is in this and He surely has a plan to bring it all to goodness as He promises to those who love Him. I will continue to pray and trust. Hang in there! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 Just returned from Mass. I offered an intention for you and all who struggle to pay debts or find employment, and when Jesus gave Himself to me in the Eucharist, I offered it for your vocation. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luigi Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 I"ve been turned down - a couple of times - for a job I really wanted, a job I thought I was very well suited for, and which I lost to a person that I thought I out-qualified. I know how you feel. In fact, when I did get the job, but before I [i]knew[/i] I got the job, I went into quite a funk. But in the long run, things worked out the way they were supposed to. Which is to say that I got a better job, which I enjoy much more, for which I am better suited, making more money. God - and [i]only[/i] God - can bring good out of what appears to be bad. You know that in your brain. It's just the rest of you that's in a funk right now. But this, too, shall pass. See my sig quote. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TeresaBenedicta Posted July 11, 2011 Author Share Posted July 11, 2011 Thanks for all of the prayers and encouragement, everyone. It's a beautiful thing to trust in God's will alone. There is no real need to feel the sting of hurt pride, or at least no need to pay attention to it if it is there. There is no need to worry. There is no need to fear. Although emotions come and are felt strongly... God alone... and what can be better? It's all about loving Him, anyways, despite of... or perhaps because of our situations. If I am to be here at home for another year, then I embrace that... although it will continue to hurt and there will be suffering in it. If I am to just get up and move without regard to actually having a job, then I embrace that... although it will be difficult to do. I don't care [i]what[/i] it is God wants me to do... I just want to know it so I can do it. And I just don't know. Nor am I in a position to know. If He wanted me to know right now, He'd make it clear. I'm afraid I'm not listening very clearly... which is certainly possible. But luckily, with a superior and a spiritual director, I think that I'll be given my answer. And of course lots of prayer. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
faithcecelia Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 [quote name='TeresaBenedicta' timestamp='1310403035' post='2265766'] Thanks for all of the prayers and encouragement, everyone. It's a beautiful thing to trust in God's will alone. There is no real need to feel the sting of hurt pride, or at least no need to pay attention to it if it is there. There is no need to worry. There is no need to fear. Although emotions come and are felt strongly... God alone... and what can be better? It's all about loving Him, anyways, despite of... or perhaps because of our situations. If I am to be here at home for another year, then I embrace that... although it will continue to hurt and there will be suffering in it. If I am to just get up and move without regard to actually having a job, then I embrace that... although it will be difficult to do. I don't care [i]what[/i] it is God wants me to do... I just want to know it so I can do it. And I just don't know. Nor am I in a position to know. If He wanted me to know right now, He'd make it clear. I'm afraid I'm listening very clearly... which is certainly possible. But luckily, with a superior and a spiritual director, I think that I'll be given my answer. And of course lots of prayer. [/quote] Sounds to me like you have gained something far more valuable than a job Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FutureSister2009 Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 I'm sure God does have a lot of ideas ahead for you! You still have your current job right? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TeresaBenedicta Posted July 11, 2011 Author Share Posted July 11, 2011 Divine humour. Let’s all just have a laugh, okay? ‘Cause God’s ways are, really, pretty hysterical. On a different note… prayers would be great right now. There’s been a major turn in events and I’ve been offered the position. I need to pray and talk to my spiritual director and try and sort through this mess of a weekend. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lisa Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 (edited) [quote name='TeresaBenedicta' timestamp='1310416619' post='2265873'] Divine humour. Let's all just have a laugh, okay? 'Cause God's ways are, really, pretty hysterical. On a different note… prayers would be great right now. There's been a major turn in events and I've been offered the position. I need to pray and talk to my spiritual director and try and sort through this mess of a weekend. [/quote] [img]http://www.phatmass.com/phorum/public/style_emoticons/default/blink.gif[/img] Ok, I think God might be testing you, just a little bit!!! "Hmmm, does she trust Me???" Edited July 11, 2011 by Lisa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MargaretTeresa Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 Hugs, my friend. I'll be praying for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FutureSister2009 Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 Everyone says God has a sense of humor! The other person probably didn't want it! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
OnlySunshine Posted July 11, 2011 Share Posted July 11, 2011 [quote name='TeresaBenedicta' timestamp='1310416619' post='2265873'] Divine humour. Let’s all just have a laugh, okay? ‘Cause God’s ways are, really, pretty hysterical. On a different note… prayers would be great right now. There’s been a major turn in events and I’ve been offered the position. I need to pray and talk to my spiritual director and try and sort through this mess of a weekend. [/quote] Whoa! Talk about divine intervention!!! Maybe it was just a test to see if you could really trust that God would get you the job that you needed? If it's been offered to you, I would definitely take it as a sign, but I would not discount talking to your spiritual director because you will probably need your emotions sorted out. Nothing is worse than being confused about which way to go. Prayers that you find the will to take the job. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!
Register a new accountSign in
Already have an account? Sign in here.
Sign In Now