Seriously Stressed

[MIKolbe]

[quote name='Lilllabettt' timestamp='1316987012' post='2310055']
Dear phatmass, its Sunday and I don't know what to do. I just am not handling the stress. The school itself is okay now. I am figuring it out. But this TFA program I am finding manipulative and creepy. Their expectations are just super high and they push push push. They guilt trip you if you waver or don't produce.

A girl quit last week ... she is going into therapy. We had professional development yesterday and I sat in this room with my fellow teachers and cried. One of the people was just sobbing "you lied to me!!!!!" (about the training/ support, etc.) There have been a couple people just having breakdowns, being hospitalized. I am just freaking out and don't know what to do! I think I need a counselor or a therapist, someone I can talk to who can talk me down from this expectation thing.

I'm just feeling hopeless/helpless I guess and so scared about what is going to happen to me. I can't get out no matter how bad it gets. I have a lease and bills to pay. Ugh I think I 'm having a panic attack
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I am praying for you!!!

Sometimes, you can only do what you can do.

[Lisa]

Be strong! If you need to, by all means, find a local therapist- even if it's just for a couple of sessions. You are an amazing person full of life, your students are learning, and you're making a difference in the world.

For your irony of the day: I keep getting emails from the local TFA recruitment people.

[cmaD2006]

[quote name='Lilllabettt' timestamp='1316987012' post='2310055']
I'm just feeling hopeless/helpless I guess and so scared about what is going to happen to me. I can't get out no matter how bad it gets. I have a lease and bills to pay. Ugh I think I 'm having a panic attack
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Lilllabettt ... if you need to you *can* get out. Ok ... so a bill doesn't get paid. So ... you may have to break a lease and make arrangements to pay later.

It is not the end of the world ... and you will be more than fine if you do have to do that.

What matters most is your sanity and health. If the situation is not healthy (and from your descriptions of the breakdowns others are having, it is NOT) then do what you have to do in order to stay well. Do you have a priest that you used to be able to talk to (even back from where ever you moved from)? Call him. Or a religious sister. Or a faith filled buddy. Therapy would be good too -- together with the spiritual support. But I don't know -- from what I know about you it would seem that a good conversation with a spirit filled person will do wonders.

Remember that the feelings of hopelessness are not from God.

Praying here too.

[BG45]

That sounds awful...you've got my prayers, though I have nothing else I can offer.

[brandelynmarie]

prayers!