For Things To Change Very Soon

[OnlySunshine]

I am tired of complaining. I'm tired of praying and feeling like I'm not being heard. I'm tired of feeling tired of both these things. I am just sick of being unemployed. I am unsure which direction to take and where to apply next. Nothing seems to be working out, even when I'm doing my best. I am feeling wearied and unsure.

Things have not changed at all and I have bills to pay, including my driver's license renewal and my tag renewal next month around my birthday. My mom is unwilling/unable to help and says that I may have to give up my license for a while. The problem with that is that I need a car in order to get a job. I can't afford to take taxis and I don't have a bicycle.

I am at wit's end here. I filed for unemployment again, but it was rejected the last time since I quit voluntarily even though it affected my health--I relapsed into depression during the last month I was there. My hope is to receive counseling in the next week or so at the diocesan counseling center which also does career counseling, according to my mom.

Please pray that things get better very soon. I hate feeling this way--like God is ignoring me. I know He is there, but it's so hard to see Him right now.