Joy Of A Quiet Heart

[OnlySunshine]

I was unable to sleep for very long because I am sick with allergies, which is not very fun, but it has given me time to pray and meditate on what was said in my meeting with my priest. My restless heart is finally at rest. I learned a very important lesson that I don't dare try to ignore the Hound of Heaven otherwise I will spend most of my time on an endless track of confusion and uncertainty. I have met with some resistance in the past, but none of that is important now. I desire to begin anew and just live totally in the presence of Our Lord, Jesus Christ. It doesn't matter what vocation I am called to as long as I can just be with Him. If He desires me to be a Sister, I will be overjoyed, but I am trying not to place limits on His amesome power. Whatever He leads me to, I know I'll be happy.

I cannot thank you all enough for the prayers and support you have offered for me. I started out a confused girl trying to serve God a couple years ago and I feel in my heart that I have matured so much, especially in the time that I stopped discerning. I was able to focus on my relationship with God. I finally understand why He allowed it--not to confuse me or make me sad--but to allow me to soak in His love since I would need it for the future. Discernment is rough sometimes and through those trials, I often wish that God would just speak up and tell me what He wants, but He's not like that. He gives us gentle clues and allows us to choose Him freely. What a loving and kind Savior we have.

I ask for your continued prayers as I try to get in contact with the Vocation Director for the Religious Sisters of Mercy. I am a little scared and a little excited, but in an act of humble obedience, I want to respond to His prompting and the advice of my priest. Right now, I'm just preparing myself and listening to a very beautiful song, [i]None But Jesus[/i] by Hillsong United.

[center][i]In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

So when You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

All my delight is in You, Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You, Lord, forevermore.[/i][/center]