Prayer For My Vocation

[OnlySunshine]

Recently, I discovered that I am very open and drawn to the idea of being a Consecrated Virgin living in the world. I started re-reading documents about the rite of consecration and also, the life of a very important virgin saint--St. Catherine of Siena. However, in the past few days, I have been involved in a week of Lenten presentations given by a religious order priest, and it made me start wishing I was called to be a Sister again. I officially ruled out that vocation just this past year because of a mental illness that I need to take medication (probably the rest of my life). I cannot seem to shake the idea. I realize it is probably just a product of being around a religious, but the desire is driving me crazy. I don't want to be rejected by anymore religious orders. I know God is not calling me to that vocation because I experienced peace when I gave it up and all the orders I contacted voiced a problem with the medication and mental illness.

I have a pretty good idea of what I think God is calling me to. Before this week, I felt completely at peace with the way my life was going, and then everything was turned upside down. Please pray that this desire to be a Sister will disappear. I am open to being a Consecrated Virgin, married life, or third order member (either Dominicans or Franciscans), but the option of religious life is not open to me. Please pray for me. God bless.