Discerning Marriage Or Single Life

[OnlySunshine]

Since I am no longer discerning religious life in a convent, I am able to admit that I have a crush on one of my guy friends. He is everything I want in a good husband--Catholic, loves Jesus and Mary, sweet, etc. (not to mention, cute!). While I was discerning, it was difficult for me to see him because I really started thinking about dating him, and there were times were I seriously considered asking him to hang out. He even admitted to me when we were talking once that he knows he's called to marriage after discerning religious life himself. This past December was especially difficult for me because I thought God was really calling me to religious life and I had to face the idea of marriage all over again. But it really makes me wonder if it wasn't a sign. I also saw him again in Church recently and had to push down the idea of asking him out. It's obvious now that I am not called to religious life because I have found no order that I am attracted to that will allow me to enter. So if I don't have the sign of acceptance, then I do not have the vocation.

I know I don't need to figure all this out right now. I actually really shouldn't, either because of school starting next week and looking for a new job. But I am asking for prayers mostly for courage and right discernment in case God shows me that I should pursue a relationship with my guy friend.

Edited August 28, 2010 by MaterMisericordiae