For Patience And Resignation To The Will Of God

[OnlySunshine]

Tonight I am facing a pretty intense trial. I am discerning religious life, and I am trying to rush God. I would like to enter right now, but it is not God's will for me to enter now. I have a lot to look forward to, including school this fall to complete my prerequisites for the nursing program. I desire to be an RN and I know it's God's will for me to be one because it has given me so much peace. Why, then, must I rush Him? I have plenty of time and I know God will tell me when He's ready, but I can't give everything over to Him. It bothers me because I feel I am testing Him and that's the last thing I want to do. I had a personal conversation with Our Lady and asked for her prayers and I feel a bit better, but the temptation to run is still there.

God, I want to serve you as best I know how, but teach me to follow you according YOUR will, not mine!
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O Great Saint Joseph,
you were completely obedient
to the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
Obtain for me the grace to know
the state of life that God
in His providence has chosen for me.
Since my happiness on earth,
and perhaps even my final happiness in heaven,
depends on this choice,
let me not be deceived in making it.

Obtain for me the light to know God's Will,
to carry it out faithfully,
and to choose the vocation
which will lead me to a happy eternity.
Amen.[/i][/center]