CreepyCrawler Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 I'm new here and I'm so upset about the fact that I masturbate that I am posting on this site. I feel like a loser but since you all don't know me it's a little better than having to admit this to someone face to face. I hate even going to Confession when I do it, but I know that I have to every time. I just go behind the screen and even then I get nervous. It's like I'm being attacked by demons or maybe I'm possessed. Sometimes I just think I'm evil because part of me wants to and part of me does not want to and it's just like the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other. Maybe I'm schizophrenic. Yesterday I was studying in the library and was shaking because I tempted so badly. I finally went home and went for a run and afterwards I thought, there, I've defeated this b/c I'm tired and happy. But then I had to shower and it was all downhill from there. I don't know what to do. I pray every night, I visit the Eucharist every day (I can only get in 10 minutes before school but I love it), and I can go for weeks without even thinking about it (or if I do, it's just a passing thought and nothing more). But then when I actually do think about it for more than 5 seconds, I always fold. I'm a total weakling. I thought about St. Someone I don't know who but he threw himself in a rosebush. I thought about this as I was driving home and I wanted to crash my car to help me resist temptation but I didn't want to hurt anyone so I didn't. I just kept saying 'Jesus please help me' and that helped me resist the urge for about an hour or two, which is longer than I've ever been able to before, but I ended up giving in. I don't even want to pray for days because I feel so bad about choosing to do wrong. I'm just miserable and afterwards I get so depressed about it and my whole week is ruined until I can go to confession. But after I've done it once, I'll keep doing it again because I feel like I'm this horrible sinner anyway. I've read everything I can about it online from Catholic sources but it only helps when I don't want to do it. When I am tempted, the last thing I think about are the things I read online. And then when I say the act of contrition I just think, yeah, well if I really was contrite I wouldn't keep sinning. What can I do? Pray for me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
homeschoolmom Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 The Creepy Aliens have a group of guys supporting each other to fight against this kind of thing... Not that I read the Creepy Aliens' phorum or anything... but I believe you can find some help there... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Theoketos Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 Bad Habits Die Hard. It was St. Benedict who threw himself into a thorgn bush, St. Francis threw himself into a freezing lake. God still loves you and you can stop. You were made holy and are holy! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChronoMasta Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 *see's jamalsmith getting banned in the near future* Anyway, it can be one tought thing to get over. Just keep praying that God keeps you from temptation as much as possible. And pray to St. Kevin- I believe that he's the saint for being kept from temptation. St. Michael's a good one as well because he defends us from Satan and his demons. Just never dispare, because with God, you can get though anything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CreepyCrawler Posted April 14, 2004 Author Share Posted April 14, 2004 Thank you. I found the resistance Jamalsmith, no one is telling me what to do. I just want to do what I want to do -- which happens to be what God wants me to do, even if I have a hard time doing it. If you don't understand that, then I'm sad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paladin D Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 Hey Creepycrawler, many of us go through similar problems. I myself, being a 17 year old guy, with my hormones raging... it can be very tough. You're not alone, masturbation is a real issue, and unfortunately many people try and steer away from that subject... but it's important! Masturbation is a very pleasent yet also very saddening sin. It's one of Satan's tools to try and bring me (and everyone) down. He knows that our flesh enjoys it, so he uses it to attack us. Hang in there, the only best advice I can give is these few points... [b]1.[/b] Pray. [b]2.[/b] Try and keep yourself occupied, things that will make your brain stay focused (such as sports, video games, school, etc) [b]3.[/b] If none of these are around, or you can't do them, try being with your family or friends. It helps delay it, and sometimes the urge just disappears that day! ...all three of these have worked for me, hope it does the same for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
littleflower+JMJ Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 actually jamal, you are wrong. [b]dead wrong.[/b] its abusing the good that God intended, its wrong, its a sin. creepycrawler, one must work hard with prayer to fight this. my prayers are with you CC, you can overcome this! all things are possible with God! you did awesome by seeking help and realizing that its wrong.... God bless. +JMJ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
immaculata Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 God also made dictionaries. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paladin D Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 [quote name='jamalsmith' date='Apr 14 2004, 03:58 PM'] Screw dat. Jerk yo self all da time. (n I might add.. moke week everyday) Nobudy cen tell you whut 2 do. God want u 2 jerk it. dat why he made you like dat. [/quote] Another reason why we need a spellcheck option on Phatmass. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fiat_Voluntas_Tua Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 This is how I overcame masterbation. Remember what goes into your hands... Prayers-you fold your hands to pray before the Most Blessed Sacrament. A Rosary-you hold the Rosary which is like holding Mary's hand. food-you eat food with your hands. parents- you touch your parents hands, face; you kiss them good night. Bible - You hold the Word of GOD in your very two hands. The Most Holy Eucharist- this is the biggest. The Son of God is placed in your hands during Holy Communion (If you receive the Eucharist by hand) Christ becomes your hands. You are holding the body of Christ. You are holding the MOST HOLY thing on this earth. You are holding your Lord, your Savior, your Redeemer. You are holding Christ. Now look back at all these Holy things you do with your hands...what happens to the list when you add masterbation. Just think, you masterbate then you go to Mass and hold Jesus christ, our Lord. How irreverant is this, how unworthy we are to receive Christ. So next time before you are tempted to masterbate...remember what goes into those hands...food, prayers, rosaries, Bibles, parents/friends, and Your Lord, Christ. It will take awhile to get over this habit. As long as it takes to form a habit it takes at least 3 times longer to break it. It is Ok to Fight temptation, we ALL do, (AKA St. Francis, and St. Wolfstan{he also threw himself in a thorn bush during a temptation}) It is when we stop fighting that we are in serious trouble. Main thing is have respect for women, and pray, and don't stop fighting...St. Michael is right behind you thrusting his sword at Satan, don't get in his way. God Bless. Let me know if I can help in anyway. Pax et Agape per Maria, Andy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Paladin D Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 Very nice post [b]thywillbedone7[/b]. But to play Devil's Advocate... What if a guy (like me) didn't have to use his hands? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fiat_Voluntas_Tua Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 Well than think about what goes into your head...all those thoughts...all those sinful, lustful, hellish, disgustingly immodestly, disrespectful dirty thoughts. And then think about how we are called to pray without ceasing...and just stop and think that at this very moment Christ is watching you. And His Mother, and all the Angels and Saints are in Heaven on there knees praying for you to stop, because with every thought you are physically ripping your soul farther from God. It is like everytime you masterbate you are taking a needle and poking the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and then poking the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Sin HURT'S! It may feel good to you, but to Christ, masterbation feels like nails driven in His hands, and feet. You feel pleasure, Christ feels thorns in his skull. You feel good, Christ feels catnine tails ripping off His flesh, He feels the weight of the Cross on His Back. He feels whips and punches, spits and mockery. All this is given to Christ, Our Lord, everytime we masterbate. Pax et Agape per Maria, Andy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CreepyCrawler Posted April 14, 2004 Author Share Posted April 14, 2004 [quote name='thywillbedone7' date='Apr 14 2004, 04:12 PM'] Main thing is have respect for women, and pray, and don't stop fighting... [/quote] whoops, I'm a girl. But thanks for your post, it was very helpful. God bless. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fiat_Voluntas_Tua Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 Pax et Agape per Maria. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SacredTruth Posted April 14, 2004 Share Posted April 14, 2004 LOL I'm sorry but I just found it amusing that everyone assumed SHE was a HE. I'm glad She is a SHE and not a HE. Its important that we women address this issue as well. A lot of good advice was given. Rock on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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