Hurt, Healing, And Forgiveness

[tinytherese]

I'm still really sad about my family situation and nearly cry multiple times a day about what dad has done to me. A part of me is angry at my mom for working and trying to get him to change and for letting him spend time with my little brother. Sure, she has been keeping us safe, a lot of things still need to be worked out. I know that redemption is possible, but with him in particular I have my doubts. He still doesn't understand why I'm upset with him. Mom says that he seems to be sorry for whatever he did to me, but he doesn't understand what it is that he is sorry for. He seems to think that I'm being selfish and spoiled because of how I'm behaving. I haven't talked to him in months and I hope that he comes to see my counselor where I can express myself to him. I want to forgive him, but I am still so angry with him. I've been lonely. I'm taking the semester off from school, but apart from my family and phatmass I don't get much social interaction, especially not with those in my age group.

Edited January 21, 2010 by tinytherese